WipeOut
I could cry i'm so out of it right now):
today over all was a pretty good day i mean considering i knew NO ONE!
considering that i had no idea what i was going to do.
i mean i'm a strong person, i think. I can handle being by myself and everything.
it was just those small moments when the teachers told everyone they could go ahead and talk for a while.
i had no idea what to do. i mean... what was i going to do?
- i don't know anyone(not a singe person)
- Everyone around me was a guy who was talking to another guy.
- And i had no .... anything.
i don't know. i can tell i'm being really winey and everything but on top of everything i'm f@#$ing PMSing):
and i feel so ugh. and gross. I'm breaking out from all the stress and added pressure. This just is not the feeling i imagined i would have on my first day of high school. i was hoping for something more like excitement i guess.
Don't get me wrong I LOVE it! it's so like thrilling i guess(: but it sucks how slow the friend thing is going. But i know i just need to get over it and go out there and talk to people. and i did... a little i guess.. i just want to have at least a few friends you know? but it was a fun day. I mean i ttly thought it would be more embarrassing considering my "AWESOME" luck. ;D haha but i also want to be more excepting of other people as well. i want to be the kind of girl that you just feel like you can be yourself around.
But Tia's right the first day is always the hardest. tomorrow will be way better(i hope). but god i just want to talk to someone like chelsea for a while. someone who gets me and cares about me you know? that would actually be really really nice. i think that's what i need right about now. a nice comforting pep talk about getting out there and just going for it. i think that would be pretty freaking awesome. yeah):
today over all was a pretty good day i mean considering i knew NO ONE!
considering that i had no idea what i was going to do.
i mean i'm a strong person, i think. I can handle being by myself and everything.
it was just those small moments when the teachers told everyone they could go ahead and talk for a while.
i had no idea what to do. i mean... what was i going to do?
- i don't know anyone(not a singe person)
- Everyone around me was a guy who was talking to another guy.
- And i had no .... anything.
i don't know. i can tell i'm being really winey and everything but on top of everything i'm f@#$ing PMSing):
and i feel so ugh. and gross. I'm breaking out from all the stress and added pressure. This just is not the feeling i imagined i would have on my first day of high school. i was hoping for something more like excitement i guess.
Don't get me wrong I LOVE it! it's so like thrilling i guess(: but it sucks how slow the friend thing is going. But i know i just need to get over it and go out there and talk to people. and i did... a little i guess.. i just want to have at least a few friends you know? but it was a fun day. I mean i ttly thought it would be more embarrassing considering my "AWESOME" luck. ;D haha but i also want to be more excepting of other people as well. i want to be the kind of girl that you just feel like you can be yourself around.
But Tia's right the first day is always the hardest. tomorrow will be way better(i hope). but god i just want to talk to someone like chelsea for a while. someone who gets me and cares about me you know? that would actually be really really nice. i think that's what i need right about now. a nice comforting pep talk about getting out there and just going for it. i think that would be pretty freaking awesome. yeah):