Pavor Nocturnus
6.30.10
I was driving around in a car with Michael Foster and he was getting really upset at things. A lady accidentally cut him off a little on the road so he zoomed into oncoming traffic to catch up with her and scare her, I think. She went through a gate that had opened and then closed far down the road, and michael's car went right through the wooden gate. She slammed on her brakes and came out with a large metal object, it looked like a huge guitar pedal.. And smashed the side of his car in. Afterwards we went into some place where someone was speaking and I had to get out, I was upset, and I was going to attempt to walk home. I came outside and walked a few seconds and saw ashley lauren walking down the street and peopleyelling behind her, (it was a really bad neighborhood). I told her I was going to walk home and she could come with me. She said it's too far and dangerous and we needed to get inside now. I took her back inside with me, and she leaned over to Kristina Davis next to me and asked her for some crack. I looked up at her and her mouth was dry and a little white on her lips and she looked really desperate. Jerrod Gamboa was a few rows ahead of us and he looked back and laughed. Kristina brought out a little pack and gave her a nail's worth of it. Ashley moved her shirt to the side and on the side of her chest was what looked like two snake bites. She rubbed it in to them and was good. I started crying because I felt so bad for her that she had to live like this and I got up and walked around.
Later these guys were in the same room with a metal helmet that covers your whole face. He was talking about how he was going to put it into a fire for a long time and then put it on and see how long he could keep it on. He was talking about his strategies for it, like wearing sunglasses to guard his eyes a little bit from the heat. He said he would get a movie contract immediately afterwards. What he had to do was put it on and wait for enough seconds to not scream anymore, and then he could take it off. He had to complete this 3 times and then he would get the contract. I had already seen the future in this dream where he did complete it. He had no eyes or ears and his face was just a round pink scar. It was so horrible and scary and sad looking. I couldn't help but cry more because of how sad it was that he would do something so horrible and painful and really wrong for a lot of money or to be famous. They were asking everyone if they were down to do it for the contract, and I was the only one who said no. I walked away again and they laughed at me.
Later Michael was taking me home and we passed the street where I had seen Lauren outside the old place we were at. There was blood everywhere and pieces of people.. There had just been a big murder and there were chinese ladies taking swabs of blood like it was nothing and putting it into little plastic jars. On our way home I thought I saw Mikey and Kyle Parker in a car. I mentioned Kyle to the people in the car with me and they looked at me in disgust and told me how he had been dead for a long time. I had blocked it out I guess. And then I remembered all of the people I knew once who had killed themselves, yet I saw them sitting together laughing in a car. Ashley had died too. I cried because I missed all of them and hated that they all were dead now. Such young people without knowing what great things could be instore for them later in life if they could have waited. I realize some of these people hadn't died, I don't know why I dreamt them in particular..
I was driving around in a car with Michael Foster and he was getting really upset at things. A lady accidentally cut him off a little on the road so he zoomed into oncoming traffic to catch up with her and scare her, I think. She went through a gate that had opened and then closed far down the road, and michael's car went right through the wooden gate. She slammed on her brakes and came out with a large metal object, it looked like a huge guitar pedal.. And smashed the side of his car in. Afterwards we went into some place where someone was speaking and I had to get out, I was upset, and I was going to attempt to walk home. I came outside and walked a few seconds and saw ashley lauren walking down the street and peopleyelling behind her, (it was a really bad neighborhood). I told her I was going to walk home and she could come with me. She said it's too far and dangerous and we needed to get inside now. I took her back inside with me, and she leaned over to Kristina Davis next to me and asked her for some crack. I looked up at her and her mouth was dry and a little white on her lips and she looked really desperate. Jerrod Gamboa was a few rows ahead of us and he looked back and laughed. Kristina brought out a little pack and gave her a nail's worth of it. Ashley moved her shirt to the side and on the side of her chest was what looked like two snake bites. She rubbed it in to them and was good. I started crying because I felt so bad for her that she had to live like this and I got up and walked around.
Later these guys were in the same room with a metal helmet that covers your whole face. He was talking about how he was going to put it into a fire for a long time and then put it on and see how long he could keep it on. He was talking about his strategies for it, like wearing sunglasses to guard his eyes a little bit from the heat. He said he would get a movie contract immediately afterwards. What he had to do was put it on and wait for enough seconds to not scream anymore, and then he could take it off. He had to complete this 3 times and then he would get the contract. I had already seen the future in this dream where he did complete it. He had no eyes or ears and his face was just a round pink scar. It was so horrible and scary and sad looking. I couldn't help but cry more because of how sad it was that he would do something so horrible and painful and really wrong for a lot of money or to be famous. They were asking everyone if they were down to do it for the contract, and I was the only one who said no. I walked away again and they laughed at me.
Later Michael was taking me home and we passed the street where I had seen Lauren outside the old place we were at. There was blood everywhere and pieces of people.. There had just been a big murder and there were chinese ladies taking swabs of blood like it was nothing and putting it into little plastic jars. On our way home I thought I saw Mikey and Kyle Parker in a car. I mentioned Kyle to the people in the car with me and they looked at me in disgust and told me how he had been dead for a long time. I had blocked it out I guess. And then I remembered all of the people I knew once who had killed themselves, yet I saw them sitting together laughing in a car. Ashley had died too. I cried because I missed all of them and hated that they all were dead now. Such young people without knowing what great things could be instore for them later in life if they could have waited. I realize some of these people hadn't died, I don't know why I dreamt them in particular..