confirmed, whee
It's official that I'm getting nuked a second time this Friday morning. Of course, this time, it's for cancer...just a slightly bigger deal. I'll be avoiding people for 4-5 days then be able to go back to work, depending how I'm feeling. Doc says I'll still be tired for a couple more weeks, but there's an end in sight.
This is going WAY faster than originally described, which is both good and bad. Good in that in means I'll be back to healthy sooner, which I'm so thankful for, because I can't even describe how exhausted I am, or what it's like having a constant headache that pain meds don't want to touch. Or how much like a dunce I feel because my brain just isn't firing right. I was struggling to make sense of some stuff I was reading at work today: that's about when I knew it was time to go.
The bad is that it's a little stressful juggling everything. I'd love to just take a month off work, but I can't afford it, financially or work-wise. Even just a couple hours a day is enough to make sure the basics get done so it's not piling up, but still, I'm too tired to do dish, or clean, or anything around the house. I stopped at the store because I wanted to get something other than chicken for dinner and thought I'd throw it in the crockpot: then I saw that I'd have to peel potatoes (the skins have iodine) and got a little overwhelmed, so I just got a steak instead and threw it in a quick marinade when I got home, then napped because that made me tired.
I mean, there's light at the end of the tunnel, but I'm still weeks away from physically feeling "better" and that really sucks. I tried some knitting, but even that takes too much concentration and I can't do more than maybe 10 minutes without getting tired. Watching tv or reading are good because I can fall asleep doing either and not feel bad. :) I've played some lego star wars on the wii and I can do that a little longer than knitting, but not much: I think it's because my fingers and arms are less tense than holding knitting needles.
I think it's time for bed, actually.
This is going WAY faster than originally described, which is both good and bad. Good in that in means I'll be back to healthy sooner, which I'm so thankful for, because I can't even describe how exhausted I am, or what it's like having a constant headache that pain meds don't want to touch. Or how much like a dunce I feel because my brain just isn't firing right. I was struggling to make sense of some stuff I was reading at work today: that's about when I knew it was time to go.
The bad is that it's a little stressful juggling everything. I'd love to just take a month off work, but I can't afford it, financially or work-wise. Even just a couple hours a day is enough to make sure the basics get done so it's not piling up, but still, I'm too tired to do dish, or clean, or anything around the house. I stopped at the store because I wanted to get something other than chicken for dinner and thought I'd throw it in the crockpot: then I saw that I'd have to peel potatoes (the skins have iodine) and got a little overwhelmed, so I just got a steak instead and threw it in a quick marinade when I got home, then napped because that made me tired.
I mean, there's light at the end of the tunnel, but I'm still weeks away from physically feeling "better" and that really sucks. I tried some knitting, but even that takes too much concentration and I can't do more than maybe 10 minutes without getting tired. Watching tv or reading are good because I can fall asleep doing either and not feel bad. :) I've played some lego star wars on the wii and I can do that a little longer than knitting, but not much: I think it's because my fingers and arms are less tense than holding knitting needles.
I think it's time for bed, actually.