strange
well im up at 4 am, tired but cant sleep...damn meds
found out today a guy i used to dig highly is getting married.
my thoughts on this? Damn that girl is lucky. and congratulations, Buddy....I do miss you very much and all of our conversations we shared. . so many experiences and life-alterning nights for me....I need to write him a letter thanking him for everything... and congratulating him on the great news of his marriage..
rode my first harley today, much fun...thankyou to Todd for the fun experience.
ah and to continue my April 1st tradition from last year (when I got my left wrist tattooed with two chinese symbols depicting "eternity") I got my tongue pierced. Ah! i know the one piercing that I stated was horrific and pointless, but things change and it was kind of a spur-of-the-moment sort of thing. I didnt' have enough money for another tattoo plus I didn't know what tattoo I would get, all I know is that I want it on my upper back and big....oh well, so I went with the cheap $35 tongue piercing, baby yeah! :) lol
hmm...i am drawing blanks now, more later
i know its been forever since i have updated,.. sorry to all of my non-existent friends out there in the world lol.
oh yeah might have a new prospect...this guy is the very quiet, kind of quarky guy.. very sweet thats for sure... all i know is that this world is full of many people and choices and I know my heart will belong to one person for the rest of my life but, alas I must move on with my life and quit believing in a fantasy... i know no one will ever be or come close to being who and what James is to me...I just know for the sake of my heart and sanity I just need to walk away with my head still held high, and I dont think I can do that for very much longer. *sigh*
Why, God? Can't there be another like him, a better version... on the optimistic side of life I guess I will look at it that way...that he is the kind of man I will marry one day but now I know exactly what I am searching for....kinda like how Buddy was for me 3 years ago, I knew he was the sort of man I was looking for...James is just an updated version of what Buddy was/is for me 3 years ago.... *sigh*
I am going to bed damnit its 4:20
*Stephanie
found out today a guy i used to dig highly is getting married.
my thoughts on this? Damn that girl is lucky. and congratulations, Buddy....I do miss you very much and all of our conversations we shared. . so many experiences and life-alterning nights for me....I need to write him a letter thanking him for everything... and congratulating him on the great news of his marriage..
rode my first harley today, much fun...thankyou to Todd for the fun experience.
ah and to continue my April 1st tradition from last year (when I got my left wrist tattooed with two chinese symbols depicting "eternity") I got my tongue pierced. Ah! i know the one piercing that I stated was horrific and pointless, but things change and it was kind of a spur-of-the-moment sort of thing. I didnt' have enough money for another tattoo plus I didn't know what tattoo I would get, all I know is that I want it on my upper back and big....oh well, so I went with the cheap $35 tongue piercing, baby yeah! :) lol
hmm...i am drawing blanks now, more later
i know its been forever since i have updated,.. sorry to all of my non-existent friends out there in the world lol.
oh yeah might have a new prospect...this guy is the very quiet, kind of quarky guy.. very sweet thats for sure... all i know is that this world is full of many people and choices and I know my heart will belong to one person for the rest of my life but, alas I must move on with my life and quit believing in a fantasy... i know no one will ever be or come close to being who and what James is to me...I just know for the sake of my heart and sanity I just need to walk away with my head still held high, and I dont think I can do that for very much longer. *sigh*
Why, God? Can't there be another like him, a better version... on the optimistic side of life I guess I will look at it that way...that he is the kind of man I will marry one day but now I know exactly what I am searching for....kinda like how Buddy was for me 3 years ago, I knew he was the sort of man I was looking for...James is just an updated version of what Buddy was/is for me 3 years ago.... *sigh*
I am going to bed damnit its 4:20
*Stephanie