Drunk and lovin' it
okay so its saturday night, v-day, 10:30 pm and im alone....drinking my friend jack and watching topgun and playing with my babies, newbin and isabella, whose hair keeps getting caught in my damn eyes and up my nose lol. and i have some person I have never met in my life from fayetteville asking if he can come over, and i say...no. sorry but i never meet anyone or ask them to come over if I have never met them in real life.
anyway, today was sorta boring:
slept til 2
went to the parents house
ate and ate more food
watched minority report and volcano
went back to my apt
proceeded to get drunk
and watch an 80's movie....
and now im here inserting another entry in my online journal.
god my life sucks, still cant get james outta my head. I can still smell him in on my bed sheets, on my livingroom futon. ARGH i hate this shit. I hate feeling like this and knowing I have to act completely normal on Monday when I see him again at work. *sigh*
but of course I am still looking forward to seeing him, I feel him every breath I take and its hard to keep sane right now.
well im off to get drunker and smoke more cigarettes and maybe write some poetry, something I haven't done in about a year but seem to be doing quite a bit lately. might post some at some point, til then.
happy drinking and happy loving,
**Steph
oh yeah and I miss my friend ben. he's in LA doing his thing...i think I might call him up right now.....yeah okay.. lol
anyway, today was sorta boring:
slept til 2
went to the parents house
ate and ate more food
watched minority report and volcano
went back to my apt
proceeded to get drunk
and watch an 80's movie....
and now im here inserting another entry in my online journal.
god my life sucks, still cant get james outta my head. I can still smell him in on my bed sheets, on my livingroom futon. ARGH i hate this shit. I hate feeling like this and knowing I have to act completely normal on Monday when I see him again at work. *sigh*
but of course I am still looking forward to seeing him, I feel him every breath I take and its hard to keep sane right now.
well im off to get drunker and smoke more cigarettes and maybe write some poetry, something I haven't done in about a year but seem to be doing quite a bit lately. might post some at some point, til then.
happy drinking and happy loving,
**Steph
oh yeah and I miss my friend ben. he's in LA doing his thing...i think I might call him up right now.....yeah okay.. lol