You Lied

[jadedfirefly32]

I don't claim to be a poet. I don't even want to be a poet. I'm a storyteller. Still, I needed to emote and this is how it expressed itself. It's only the second poem I've ever written in my life, so please don't judge too harshly.

You Lied

You said you loved me
and we switched rings;
forever promised to each other.
But your fingers stilled
because I wasn’t her.
I didn’t know I was the rebound girl--
And still I stayed.

You said you loved me.
I should have known
when our son was born
and there I sat alone;
while you slept in my vacant room,
your dreams worth more than us--
And still I stayed.

You said you loved me
yet I worked unaided
to build a respectable life.
I fought, sacrificed, pushed forward
while you watched from your toy box
of hobbies and games--
And still I stayed

You said you loved me.
I tried to find
some common ground.
But my search was a farce
as I looked in the wrong places
because you hid who you’d really become;
decisions you’d made without me,
despite me.
How could I have known?
And still I stayed.

You said you loved me
and told half-truths;
bounced from job to job and
school to school.
You took my money.
You took my love.
You took it all
for yourself
and gave me nothing--
And still I stayed.

You said you loved me,
but I figured it out.

You lied.

And I understood why
I wasn’t worth the effort,
I wasn’t worth discomfort,
I wasn’t worth sacrifice,
I wasn’t worth the truth.
We weren’t worth much at all.

So I left
and you let me go
without a word,
without a fight,
without any effort at all,
and I knew
it was because the only one
you ever really loved
was you.