I hate Tuesdays
I've been sitting here at work for about an hour, and all I have done was run up to the 10th floor to hand over an envelope to somebody I've never even heard of. I am very grateful I had the connections to a summer internship in a great environment with excellent pay and hours. The only disappointment is, I can't help but feel useless. I ask around the office to see if anybody needs anything, but other than a few odd things here and there, I'm pretty much sitting here and doing nothing.
I can honestly say that at this point in my life, things are the best that they have been. I have a great job, I'm prepared to start college, and I feel like I have more responsibilities, but I'm juggling them all at once. Sean and I are finally living together-- we've been waiting for so long. We're about to celebrate our two year anniversary-- and we'd been in a long distance relationship up until this past June. I can't even begin to describe how appreciative I am of everything that is settling into place. Don't get me wrong; I do realize I have some difficult times ahead of myself, but I have healed to the point where I can juggle a lot of things on my plate. And now, if I need somebody to help hold me up every now and then, I have the perfect person sharing my bedroom with me. All I need to do is say his name, and he'll be there.
I have realized happiness does not mean you need to be cheerful all of the time. I have my moments. I am still very emotional with some things, I am moody, and I still have arguments with my family and even with Sean. Happiness is a healthy balance between the good and the bad. You need enough of the bad stuff to help build character and keep you strong, and the good times will be there to keep you from reaching insanity. Even when there are conflicts among my family members involving myself, I know that they will soon be resolved. I'm not living my life day by day in misery anymore. I cry when I need to, but I rarely ever cry without knowing why anymore.
The only thing that is bringing me down is the fact that it's already August, and I stopped getting in touch with my friends back at the end of June. I guess with me working so much, I haven't really had time to do anything else. I haven't seen Nathan, who I am really going to miss. I need to find a time to maybe have some kind of get together with everybody. Maybe I'll look into that at the end of this week.
Otherwise, I'm doing fabulous.
I can honestly say that at this point in my life, things are the best that they have been. I have a great job, I'm prepared to start college, and I feel like I have more responsibilities, but I'm juggling them all at once. Sean and I are finally living together-- we've been waiting for so long. We're about to celebrate our two year anniversary-- and we'd been in a long distance relationship up until this past June. I can't even begin to describe how appreciative I am of everything that is settling into place. Don't get me wrong; I do realize I have some difficult times ahead of myself, but I have healed to the point where I can juggle a lot of things on my plate. And now, if I need somebody to help hold me up every now and then, I have the perfect person sharing my bedroom with me. All I need to do is say his name, and he'll be there.
I have realized happiness does not mean you need to be cheerful all of the time. I have my moments. I am still very emotional with some things, I am moody, and I still have arguments with my family and even with Sean. Happiness is a healthy balance between the good and the bad. You need enough of the bad stuff to help build character and keep you strong, and the good times will be there to keep you from reaching insanity. Even when there are conflicts among my family members involving myself, I know that they will soon be resolved. I'm not living my life day by day in misery anymore. I cry when I need to, but I rarely ever cry without knowing why anymore.
The only thing that is bringing me down is the fact that it's already August, and I stopped getting in touch with my friends back at the end of June. I guess with me working so much, I haven't really had time to do anything else. I haven't seen Nathan, who I am really going to miss. I need to find a time to maybe have some kind of get together with everybody. Maybe I'll look into that at the end of this week.
Otherwise, I'm doing fabulous.