fortune's fool
i can't take it anymore. i'm sitting in his room. i WAS watching him sleep earlier, waiting for the occasional twitch, waiting to see the smile form unbeknownst to him.
i can number all the times he was actually awake when i was with him. what's the use? he sleeps in the daytime, plays videogames at night. i know for a fact that he's neglected to shower in the past couple of days, and i'm not even sure if he's eaten anything since last night.
i miss him. sure, i see him everyday. but he's usually asleep. or playing ffxi. i sit idly by for the most part, because i've been trying to up my patience. but... alas, i'm not a patient person. not at all.
tell me again why i hang around someone who doesn't quite value my being here. and if he does, he has a funny way of showing it. i'm busting at the seams. help me.
should i just credit this to my inability to keep people in my life? ... i wouldn't know where to begin with that one.
you're probably laughing your ass off. i realize there's no such thing as a perfect relationship... hence my fear of being in one for the longest time. you laugh because you read about how happy and scared i was about this. you laugh because it seems to be falling apart now. well go on, then. laugh.
i'm nothing but fortune's fool anyway.
i can number all the times he was actually awake when i was with him. what's the use? he sleeps in the daytime, plays videogames at night. i know for a fact that he's neglected to shower in the past couple of days, and i'm not even sure if he's eaten anything since last night.
i miss him. sure, i see him everyday. but he's usually asleep. or playing ffxi. i sit idly by for the most part, because i've been trying to up my patience. but... alas, i'm not a patient person. not at all.
tell me again why i hang around someone who doesn't quite value my being here. and if he does, he has a funny way of showing it. i'm busting at the seams. help me.
should i just credit this to my inability to keep people in my life? ... i wouldn't know where to begin with that one.
you're probably laughing your ass off. i realize there's no such thing as a perfect relationship... hence my fear of being in one for the longest time. you laugh because you read about how happy and scared i was about this. you laugh because it seems to be falling apart now. well go on, then. laugh.
i'm nothing but fortune's fool anyway.