Chaos tastes like...?
Everyone's excited to go to Taste of Chaos. I am, too. Excited for them to go. I'll probably catch it on pay-per-view or something. Although... it probably won't be available on pay-per-view for a long time. *shrug* ^_^ Have fun, everybody. ^_^
I dunno if everyone's familiar with my Taste of Chaos plan. I know this kid who really, REALLY wanted to go to the concert (*cough*JOE*cough*) but didn't have the means to go (i.e., no cashola to pay for the ticket), so I offered him my ticket. Since chaos has taken hold of a good chunk of my life anyway, I figured I didn't need to be at Taste of Chaos. *shrug* It would be nice to go... after all, it kinda IS my scene... *shrug* But hey-- if you're gonna fuck up, you have to pay the price, right? ^_^ No big. I'll be the good girl that I used to be just for that night. *wink*
Academic probation: Get below a 2.0 GPA in your first college semester, and the admin puts a hold on your registration for the following semester. For a regular straight-A student, this isn't the ideal situation in which to get caught. It's left a pretty devastating dent in my college experience, suffice to say. Yeah. It kinda sucks.
On the one hand, I'm relieved that I've met with my advisor, and she's taken off the hold on my registration so I can continue to APPLY MYSELF in school without further interruption. On the other hand... I have to retake my Bio and English courses in order to wipe off the nasty-looking failures on my permanent record. I'm so desperate to NOT fuck up my Fall semester plans that I'm considering making yet another sacrifice and going through summer school. I'm not happy about it... but once again... if you're gonna fuck up, you have to pay the price.
What did my parents have to say about all this, you ask. Well... I'm making my own decisions, and if anything, what they say to me will only affect me guidance-wise. I'm tired of taking everything they say to heart when it's MY heart crying out to be heard. I'm taking charge of my life, damn it. Their little baby girl is on her way out.
Hmm. ^_^ Let's examine the other side of the spectrum, shall we? ^_^
Things with Ben are more and more realistic. Little problems here and there arise (the sleeping thing... hah...)-- that's a given in any kind of person-to-person relationship. But I've noticed that I deeply, genuinely care about this guy, because despite myself, I actually give a shit about what HE wants and what's good for HIM. It blows my mind. Also scares the living hell out of me. ^_^ But he's in this whole thing as much as I am, and that's where I find the most security. I'm actually secure about something. That's INSANE, you realize that? INSANE. ^_^ I've never been so excited about insanity in my whole life. ^_^
Anyway... I guess that's your big fat update. Comments would be nice... :P
I dunno if everyone's familiar with my Taste of Chaos plan. I know this kid who really, REALLY wanted to go to the concert (*cough*JOE*cough*) but didn't have the means to go (i.e., no cashola to pay for the ticket), so I offered him my ticket. Since chaos has taken hold of a good chunk of my life anyway, I figured I didn't need to be at Taste of Chaos. *shrug* It would be nice to go... after all, it kinda IS my scene... *shrug* But hey-- if you're gonna fuck up, you have to pay the price, right? ^_^ No big. I'll be the good girl that I used to be just for that night. *wink*
Academic probation: Get below a 2.0 GPA in your first college semester, and the admin puts a hold on your registration for the following semester. For a regular straight-A student, this isn't the ideal situation in which to get caught. It's left a pretty devastating dent in my college experience, suffice to say. Yeah. It kinda sucks.
On the one hand, I'm relieved that I've met with my advisor, and she's taken off the hold on my registration so I can continue to APPLY MYSELF in school without further interruption. On the other hand... I have to retake my Bio and English courses in order to wipe off the nasty-looking failures on my permanent record. I'm so desperate to NOT fuck up my Fall semester plans that I'm considering making yet another sacrifice and going through summer school. I'm not happy about it... but once again... if you're gonna fuck up, you have to pay the price.
What did my parents have to say about all this, you ask. Well... I'm making my own decisions, and if anything, what they say to me will only affect me guidance-wise. I'm tired of taking everything they say to heart when it's MY heart crying out to be heard. I'm taking charge of my life, damn it. Their little baby girl is on her way out.
Hmm. ^_^ Let's examine the other side of the spectrum, shall we? ^_^
Things with Ben are more and more realistic. Little problems here and there arise (the sleeping thing... hah...)-- that's a given in any kind of person-to-person relationship. But I've noticed that I deeply, genuinely care about this guy, because despite myself, I actually give a shit about what HE wants and what's good for HIM. It blows my mind. Also scares the living hell out of me. ^_^ But he's in this whole thing as much as I am, and that's where I find the most security. I'm actually secure about something. That's INSANE, you realize that? INSANE. ^_^ I've never been so excited about insanity in my whole life. ^_^
Anyway... I guess that's your big fat update. Comments would be nice... :P