So close but yet so far!

Jun 07, 2006 23:27

I took the most intense 100 question test of my life tonight that made me say 'duh'... outloud. We shall see what happens, but this class has been extremely humbling. And teaching me how to go long amounts of time without sleep and how not to be moody. (To the best of my ability) And how to withstand long amounts of time with a cramped right hand from writing so much. Someday my rest will come. But not any time soon. Two weeks in counting and the dreded chemistry will be over. But it hasn't been all that bad. ITs teaching me how to NOT to procrastinate. Oh my journal, how I've missed you so.

This weird season that I have been journying on has taught me a few things. Some things I am in the process of still understanding, for the most part. I am learning how to be more self reliant, but dependent solely on the Lord. Yesterdays Mannah may not last forever, but it is good in times of a valley, which I have experienced my first. A sweet and dear friend helped put that into perspective. But I have also discovered that there is more tucked away in my heart for a rainy day than I thought, which is where the Mannah comes from. Humbling, falling, getting picked back up, traveling in and out of drama caused in my own head then projected, and then sleep. With serenity.

ANd the more important things... your support comes from the least expected places... and I am so thankful for more seasoned, older brothers and sisters in the Lors. The help put things into perspective that my mind cannot. And last but not least.... wait on the Lord, oh my soul. He will take care of those desires in your heart of hearts. But for now, grab on tight and prepare to sweat, theres work to be done. Alot. This adventure requires preparation, and nothing that is of worth comes without sacrifice. NOTHING. THis class was the first taste, and I can do it. So train hard and GO BIGGG!!!
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