but it's got that falling feeling.
but it’s got that falling feeling. rpf. ryan gosling/rachel mcadams. 617 words. PG13. Two people fall in love onscreen, then for real, then break up. This doesn't mean they ever stop loving each other.
an: yeah, I know. It's creepy and wrong.
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“Rachel and my love story is a hell of a lot more romantic than that,” he said once.
“I mean, God bless ‘The Notebook’. It introduced me to one of the great loves of my life,” he said too.
And well - now he feels like an idiot.
-
Ryan remembers Charleston. It was sunny and Rachel’s hair was light. Her mouth was warm on his and her laughter lingered in the hair and he doesn’t think he’ll ever be happier than then.
-
“Hi, I’m Rachel.”
Her hair was darker, then, before shooting. She was wearing a green dress and bit her lower lip when he slyly looked her over.
“Nice to meet you Rachel. I’m Ryan.”
“Can’t wait to fall in love with you Ryan.”
She tossed her head back and laughed at herself; his stomach fell to the ground and he broke out in a sweat.
“Should be fun.”
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This part - this part is after.
Rachel hates L.A. - she thinks it’s suffocating. She goes to New York City and gets an apartment with a view of Central Park and only makes movies she wants to make. She drinks coffee from the Starbucks down the street and eats from food carts. Sometimes she dates men that aren't Ryan.
Ryan follows her there, eventually. Michelle welcomes him to the neighborhood and he sighs deeply before saying, "So you're the welcoming committee, then?"
He can't help but be disappointed. Matilda squirms on Michelle's hip. Ryan drops a kiss to the top of Matilda head and thanks them both.
"Anything for a friend," Michelle responds and Ryan feels relief well up in his chest.
-
Somewhere in between this happened:
They are in bed and she’s wearing an old concert t-shirt of his. Her hair is around her shoulders and his arms are around her waist and she can’t stop smiling.
“I want to dye my hair.”
And Ryan said, “How about pink then?” as he smiled into her shoulder blade and she laughed before saying, “Perfect.”
He buys the box of dye at a Walgreens and she does it in the bathroom.
“You look like cotton candy.”
She stuck her tongue out and felt like Allie, for a minute.
“I bet you didn’t know that cotton candy is my favorite.”
Rachel hit him on the shoulder and said, “It better be,” in a quiet kind of voice that made him kiss her gently.
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At a party, in New York, Rachel sees Ryan across the room. This is later - after she ran into him at Duane Read and Michelle didn’t win an Oscar and he wasn’t even nominated.
Hey, she mouths. He grins and mouths hey yourself right back.
There is a moment where they are just standing there - smiling like idiots and each nursing a beer. She almost thinks he’s going to let it pass before he nods his head towards the door.
You wanna get out of here? He motions.
She sets her beer down on the nearest table and meets him halfway.
“Long time, no see kid.”
He notices her hair is dark again.
Her hand finds his automatically and she’s the one who leads them out the door.
-
The day after:
Ryan wakes up first and Rachel wakes up five minutes after. She is groggy and a little hungover. She sees Ryan and chokes out a laugh before burrowing her head in his chest.
“We’re a real piece of work,” she says.
He kisses the top of her head and runs over the curve of her spine with his thumb.
“They don’t write stories about ones that aren’t.”
-
Her beer leaves a ring on the table that never comes out.
an: yeah, I know. It's creepy and wrong.
-
“Rachel and my love story is a hell of a lot more romantic than that,” he said once.
“I mean, God bless ‘The Notebook’. It introduced me to one of the great loves of my life,” he said too.
And well - now he feels like an idiot.
-
Ryan remembers Charleston. It was sunny and Rachel’s hair was light. Her mouth was warm on his and her laughter lingered in the hair and he doesn’t think he’ll ever be happier than then.
-
“Hi, I’m Rachel.”
Her hair was darker, then, before shooting. She was wearing a green dress and bit her lower lip when he slyly looked her over.
“Nice to meet you Rachel. I’m Ryan.”
“Can’t wait to fall in love with you Ryan.”
She tossed her head back and laughed at herself; his stomach fell to the ground and he broke out in a sweat.
“Should be fun.”
-
This part - this part is after.
Rachel hates L.A. - she thinks it’s suffocating. She goes to New York City and gets an apartment with a view of Central Park and only makes movies she wants to make. She drinks coffee from the Starbucks down the street and eats from food carts. Sometimes she dates men that aren't Ryan.
Ryan follows her there, eventually. Michelle welcomes him to the neighborhood and he sighs deeply before saying, "So you're the welcoming committee, then?"
He can't help but be disappointed. Matilda squirms on Michelle's hip. Ryan drops a kiss to the top of Matilda head and thanks them both.
"Anything for a friend," Michelle responds and Ryan feels relief well up in his chest.
-
Somewhere in between this happened:
They are in bed and she’s wearing an old concert t-shirt of his. Her hair is around her shoulders and his arms are around her waist and she can’t stop smiling.
“I want to dye my hair.”
And Ryan said, “How about pink then?” as he smiled into her shoulder blade and she laughed before saying, “Perfect.”
He buys the box of dye at a Walgreens and she does it in the bathroom.
“You look like cotton candy.”
She stuck her tongue out and felt like Allie, for a minute.
“I bet you didn’t know that cotton candy is my favorite.”
Rachel hit him on the shoulder and said, “It better be,” in a quiet kind of voice that made him kiss her gently.
-
At a party, in New York, Rachel sees Ryan across the room. This is later - after she ran into him at Duane Read and Michelle didn’t win an Oscar and he wasn’t even nominated.
Hey, she mouths. He grins and mouths hey yourself right back.
There is a moment where they are just standing there - smiling like idiots and each nursing a beer. She almost thinks he’s going to let it pass before he nods his head towards the door.
You wanna get out of here? He motions.
She sets her beer down on the nearest table and meets him halfway.
“Long time, no see kid.”
He notices her hair is dark again.
Her hand finds his automatically and she’s the one who leads them out the door.
-
The day after:
Ryan wakes up first and Rachel wakes up five minutes after. She is groggy and a little hungover. She sees Ryan and chokes out a laugh before burrowing her head in his chest.
“We’re a real piece of work,” she says.
He kisses the top of her head and runs over the curve of her spine with his thumb.
“They don’t write stories about ones that aren’t.”
-
Her beer leaves a ring on the table that never comes out.