sittin home alone on a sunday
i am one to constantly reinvent myself. i always look back on the old days and say "ewww i was so ________ (fill in the blank with negative comment)." like i was looking at old journal entries and all they talked about was jake (who turned out to be a real winner). like, it is embaressing to look back now and see how stupid i sounded.
i reinvent myself because i see things in me that i dont like. which is probably why i go through friends so fast. not that i go through them like they are disposable, but get bored and just am not the same anymore when i am with them. which, of course, bothers me (big time).
high school (at least since i turned 16) has been the best. it makes me sad to know that i only have three months left to make a mark, to have fun. after this, everything will change. i won't be driving around with friends, i won't be going to random high school parties, i won't be doing random fun stuff, i won't be sneaking into someone's house while their parents are on vacation, i wont be throwing parties.
what will be the same and what will be different is something i need to worry about later. but now i need to focus on having fun. i need to eliminate all the problems i have with people and not do stupid shit to create new ones. because, it is scary, but this is my last shot to live the life i have been living. i will never be 17 again. no more excuses to be juvinille or act crazy.
is growing up worth it all?
im not sure.
i reinvent myself because i see things in me that i dont like. which is probably why i go through friends so fast. not that i go through them like they are disposable, but get bored and just am not the same anymore when i am with them. which, of course, bothers me (big time).
high school (at least since i turned 16) has been the best. it makes me sad to know that i only have three months left to make a mark, to have fun. after this, everything will change. i won't be driving around with friends, i won't be going to random high school parties, i won't be doing random fun stuff, i won't be sneaking into someone's house while their parents are on vacation, i wont be throwing parties.
what will be the same and what will be different is something i need to worry about later. but now i need to focus on having fun. i need to eliminate all the problems i have with people and not do stupid shit to create new ones. because, it is scary, but this is my last shot to live the life i have been living. i will never be 17 again. no more excuses to be juvinille or act crazy.
is growing up worth it all?
im not sure.