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I wasn't sure how it really made me feel whcih was probably the most annoying part about it. I just didn't really have a feeling when it came to it i was neutral and while thats ok its not where i wanted to be with it, i wanted to know exactly how i stood of the subject.
anyways what i did figure out tonight is one slight thing, when the, lets just call it a conflict of interest without being too hypocritical, ok so when this conflict arose i just rode it around tried to assess my feelings as the night went on and i realised one thing. It makes me loose the drive to put in effort. I constantly put in effort in the form of time and energy. I mean i try and do these little things that just make the times we have better and when the conflict of interest arises i loose this drive to put in effort. I don't even want to try, i'm just content to just sit there idle.
will you sleep tonight??
anyways what i did figure out tonight is one slight thing, when the, lets just call it a conflict of interest without being too hypocritical, ok so when this conflict arose i just rode it around tried to assess my feelings as the night went on and i realised one thing. It makes me loose the drive to put in effort. I constantly put in effort in the form of time and energy. I mean i try and do these little things that just make the times we have better and when the conflict of interest arises i loose this drive to put in effort. I don't even want to try, i'm just content to just sit there idle.
will you sleep tonight??