everyone has bad days
today was a bad day, it was going ok doing the same old crap in the stupid factory but while i was working by myself this aftrenoon i just started thinking about a few things that i consider to be the worst times in my life and it just made me feel so depressed, its sucks. I hate feeling this way i still don't feel that great now. It seems that when things aren't going 100% in my life i start to get really down and i have this way of reminding myself of all the bad things going on in my life at the time. I just felt like a push over today, thinking about certain events in which i was "the victim" really just made me feel like shit and I know this happens to everybody but i just don't like it when it does happen and I don't like thinking about it. I try to do things to take my mind off it but it doesn't really work, i just can't seem to focus on something else. Just thought i would write about it. the whole push over thing has been on my mind a bit lately, I hope that i'm not really that much of a push over and I hope that if the time comes for me to be strong, I can be.