today

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today sucked dick.

i had to give up my command of the unit...

it was proably the only right thing ive done my entire 4 years in jrotc.

i feel like a fool

nothing went as planned.

i got yelled at alot.

it was a disaster

i wouldnt be suprised if MSG Lang was happier then hell when i walked out the door this after noon.

i feel like a god damned fool

i dont know why i let it get to my head that i was Battalion Commander

its not like i earned it...

i was just there to fill the void

i bet MSG Lang is wishing he didnt make me BC...

i dont know why i acted all high and mighty...

i didnt desirve it

there was no one else

i did a horriable job as BC...

i did everything for myself before the cadets under me...

ive lost all faith in myself

the only thing i can hope for is in the future to not be so dumb

i hope i mature more

i hope...

theres not point in fucking hoping

i dont hope, i will

change.

today has sucked...

tomarrow will proably be worse...

but what ever...

ill proably get yelled at over the military ball, because some how in some shape of form and fasion i did something wrong.

i feel soo stupid.