extremely bored and severly confused.
so i'm once again sitting in first block doing absolutely nothing. AGAIN! but no matter. gives me time to think about stuff. and currently i am thinking about my girlfriends ex-boyfriend. this guy is such a fool. he is still totally stuck on her and they broke up over like 4 months ago. i can't blame him for being stuck on her, she is such an awesome girl and anyone would want to be with her. but she seriously does not like him at all. she doesnt talk to him at all and she doesnt like walking passed him because they had a kinda bad relationship. he was one of those possesive boyfriends who jus showed off the fact that he was going out with her but didnt really have strong feelings for her. anyways, he totally hates the fact that me and her are together. icould care less. i think its hella funny though. yesterday after i got changed for baseball conditioning, i was alking through the locker room looking for a friend. and he was walking passed me and he kinda puffed out his chest and tried to like shoulder me or something. trying to be a tough guy. so i just stopped right in front of him and gave him a shoulder in the chest. i think he will think twice before he has any more bright ideas of trying to bump into me. then i guess during the school day one of ashley's friends has P.E. with him, and he went up to her and grabbed her hand and kised it and said " give that to ashley for me" she told him no and walked off. he is totally jealous of me and ashley. i feel kinda bad because i never thought anyone would have any reason to be jealous of me. its kinda funny when you think about it. he tried to talk to ashley the other day when i wasn't around. she told me all about it. she said he told her he is hella jealous because when ever he sees me and her together he always sees happiness in her face. and he said she never looked like that when they were together. and she told him it was because he treated her like shit and she didnt like him. he asked why they couldnt be friends and she basically told him she didnt want to be friends with him. i feel bad. i dot want to make people feel bad or make people jealous. but when it comes to ashley i would do anything to keep her happy. and i know that being with her is the biggest thing i can do. and it is more than enough to make me happy. hopefully this guy will realize that we have strong feelings for eachother and don't plan on breaking up. i hope this kid can grow up and move on because it would be best for him to do so. but who knows, i suppose if i were him i would be the same way. i told her that i couldn't blame him for trying to get back with her because i would do the same if i were in that situation. but she said that there would never be a time when that would happen. and i'm so happy that she said that. i know i would never do anything to make her want to break up withme and i know that no matter what i will always want to be with her. she is amazing. anything and everything i could ever ask for. i'm really lucky to be with her. kinda done writing now. hopefully the day picks up and i wont be so bored. baseball camp @ CSUEB tonight. thats gonna suck. but i have to go because i already paid to go. their all skills camp was garbage. didnt learn a dam thing. but lord knows i could use some help on my hitting and this is suppose to be a good camp. so we'll see how the day goes. maybe i'll write some more later on today.