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At what point did I stop having fun?
Even the opportunity to have fun and I turn it down. I feel like I have too much to do and having fun is what I compromise. I have bills to pay. I want to help pay more so we can make it by without mom getting another payday advance.
Dicorce is a funny thing. Not so much "ha ha" as "well that's strange".
The things I've had to learn. To do. I don't know. I've changed and I'm not sure whether or not its for the better. So much responsibility has been thrust upon me. I sit in class and worry about ways I can buget my check to help get more groceries or what I can do for dinner that night so my mom doesn't have to worry about it. I've emotionally become quite cripple. Not like I have much emotional maturity to lose.
We signed a lease for a year at an apartment in san ramon. Moving, again. Downsizing. I feel like no one will come visit me. Its strange. What's nice though is the people who've said they'd help. People I didn't expect.
I don't know.
Waste of an update.
It really just keeps me from talking to you.
Giving you up has proven to be the hardest thing I've had to do yet. This sucks.
Even the opportunity to have fun and I turn it down. I feel like I have too much to do and having fun is what I compromise. I have bills to pay. I want to help pay more so we can make it by without mom getting another payday advance.
Dicorce is a funny thing. Not so much "ha ha" as "well that's strange".
The things I've had to learn. To do. I don't know. I've changed and I'm not sure whether or not its for the better. So much responsibility has been thrust upon me. I sit in class and worry about ways I can buget my check to help get more groceries or what I can do for dinner that night so my mom doesn't have to worry about it. I've emotionally become quite cripple. Not like I have much emotional maturity to lose.
We signed a lease for a year at an apartment in san ramon. Moving, again. Downsizing. I feel like no one will come visit me. Its strange. What's nice though is the people who've said they'd help. People I didn't expect.
I don't know.
Waste of an update.
It really just keeps me from talking to you.
Giving you up has proven to be the hardest thing I've had to do yet. This sucks.