im such a bitch
you know i figured out my problem with everything in the entire universe. im always in the middle of every spectrum that exists. my freinds are either liberal or conservative, im in the middle. im niether smart nor stupid, im a musician but i dont practice all day, i care about like 3 things when i SHOULD care about so much more.
anyways, the end result is that i feel like im living life by going through the motions, i do things because thats the best ive got. i go out and do shit i dont even like doing because it takes my mind off the fact that i have no idea what im doing with my life, what i care about, who i care about, what i like doing, what i dont like doing. i just genuinly do not know. and i guess im lazy because i find myself not caring half the time. i just dont give a fuck about anything, which would be depressing if i cared.
in the past week, the only times ive felt like i was doing something right was when i was with alex or brittany, when i called to schedual that damn college interview that i have tommorow, those rare times i picked up my bass, when i skipped advisory to go to Pats, when i ate haddock for dinner, when my dad woke me up to talk to me about why im not motivated about anything.. only a few people in my life get me and im sad right now.
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY WHEN I GROW UP. WHO'S WITH ME?
anyways, the end result is that i feel like im living life by going through the motions, i do things because thats the best ive got. i go out and do shit i dont even like doing because it takes my mind off the fact that i have no idea what im doing with my life, what i care about, who i care about, what i like doing, what i dont like doing. i just genuinly do not know. and i guess im lazy because i find myself not caring half the time. i just dont give a fuck about anything, which would be depressing if i cared.
in the past week, the only times ive felt like i was doing something right was when i was with alex or brittany, when i called to schedual that damn college interview that i have tommorow, those rare times i picked up my bass, when i skipped advisory to go to Pats, when i ate haddock for dinner, when my dad woke me up to talk to me about why im not motivated about anything.. only a few people in my life get me and im sad right now.
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY WHEN I GROW UP. WHO'S WITH ME?