Success: The art of being really good at who you already are
So, this summer is all about me. Gee, well, aren't you saying to yourself right now, "But Jessica, it seems like your whole life has been about you."
Well, you're wrong and you're right, here's why:
I'm been very ineffective at being myself for the last 23 years. I'm very good at imitating, and so really I've just been plugging-and-chugging through life trying to sample as much cultural behavior as possible in order to find what fits.
Well, enough of that! I've decided what I like and what I don't like. Good. Let's go with this.
So, now I need to figure out a way to enact it better. I have three months to learn how to keep the good feelings around even when the people who supply them go away. I'm right now only at the stage where I believe people when they say good things about me. Yet, I'm not quite at the stage where I don't want to ask "why?" My neurotic brain has a laundry list of things that I've not liked about myself for a long time. So here's my summer deal: Jessica, you're stuck with yourself so there shouldn't be anything you don't like about you. I think I'm about 60% there to total-liking myself. I will always have the lazy Jes vs. hyper Jes to deal with, I'm sure. Half the time, I'm really efficient and I get stuff done. I'm a great me! I just have trouble adjusting when too many distractions are around. People, food, TV. Anything can be a drug.
You know, I had this goal to spend more time by myself last semester, but really I should be spending time with MYSELF no matter where I am or who I'm with. It's these next few months where I will be able to actually listen to myself all the time and not give in to socail imitative pressures.
I give myself the unofficial goal to be cured by 25. Haha
You know, this have been a common theme in my life. But, I'm tired of making myself a victim. There are so many people that see good in me and I want to see it too. And once i can see and believe in my own beautiful nature, I will be a more effective human being, capable of bettering humanity in return.
Amen
Well, you're wrong and you're right, here's why:
I'm been very ineffective at being myself for the last 23 years. I'm very good at imitating, and so really I've just been plugging-and-chugging through life trying to sample as much cultural behavior as possible in order to find what fits.
Well, enough of that! I've decided what I like and what I don't like. Good. Let's go with this.
So, now I need to figure out a way to enact it better. I have three months to learn how to keep the good feelings around even when the people who supply them go away. I'm right now only at the stage where I believe people when they say good things about me. Yet, I'm not quite at the stage where I don't want to ask "why?" My neurotic brain has a laundry list of things that I've not liked about myself for a long time. So here's my summer deal: Jessica, you're stuck with yourself so there shouldn't be anything you don't like about you. I think I'm about 60% there to total-liking myself. I will always have the lazy Jes vs. hyper Jes to deal with, I'm sure. Half the time, I'm really efficient and I get stuff done. I'm a great me! I just have trouble adjusting when too many distractions are around. People, food, TV. Anything can be a drug.
You know, I had this goal to spend more time by myself last semester, but really I should be spending time with MYSELF no matter where I am or who I'm with. It's these next few months where I will be able to actually listen to myself all the time and not give in to socail imitative pressures.
I give myself the unofficial goal to be cured by 25. Haha
You know, this have been a common theme in my life. But, I'm tired of making myself a victim. There are so many people that see good in me and I want to see it too. And once i can see and believe in my own beautiful nature, I will be a more effective human being, capable of bettering humanity in return.
Amen