Meep..
You know, I actually realised something just now. About why I'd rather die than start doing some proper research in an archive centre. I'm actually terrified by this, doing it alone when I have absolutely no clue how it works. I'm terrified to go there and find thousands and thousands of documents and having no idea what to do with them, where to start, etc... How am I supposed to do anything in one day? How am I supposed to remember it all once back home?
I'm terrified, and I feel stupid because of this.
You see, no one really told us how you do research. They just expect us to do it, but it's not that bloody easy! It may sound it, but it's really not. And I'm not the kind of person who is at ease with unknown things, and I know it's stupid but it'd be so much easier if there was someone with me to help me...
Bah. Don't mind me. I'm just having a bit of a nervous breakdown lol.
I hate my life haha.
I'm terrified, and I feel stupid because of this.
You see, no one really told us how you do research. They just expect us to do it, but it's not that bloody easy! It may sound it, but it's really not. And I'm not the kind of person who is at ease with unknown things, and I know it's stupid but it'd be so much easier if there was someone with me to help me...
Bah. Don't mind me. I'm just having a bit of a nervous breakdown lol.
I hate my life haha.