Emotional Diareha of the Keyboard
As school is coming to an end I'm finding myself feeling really weird. Not in the I can't figure out what to do next weird kind of way which I've been feeling the last few months. I feel like I suddenly want to connect to people in this really deep way... I want to be emotionally venerable. And being emotionally venerable isn't nessecarrily the greatest experience for me. Suddenly I want to be hugged and held and loved.... I guess I always want to be loved... But why do I have to get all stereotypically girly in the last semester of college? I have other things I need to be doing than wasting time wishing I had a boy to cuddle with... There is a time and place for everything, and this is not the time nor the place in which I need to be owrried about if someone loves me enough... BTW, fuck you dad. The whole neurosis about people loving me enough, all your fault douche bag. Why couldn't you have loved me enough? Then my life would be so much easier in the realm of interpersonal relationships... It's amazing how much of my life you fucked up and controlled with those five minutes... Five minutes that you didn't love me enough to stop. Well, fuck you dad. I doubt you'll ever love me enough, so I should just write you off. But what about every other person in the world? Now they all have to be hald to that same thought process. To me love will always have to be proved... thanks to you. Fuck you dad.