Baggage Theme/Week 172
Title: The Burden of Guilt
Author: landofthekwt
Rating: G
Genre: Delusions of guilt
Pairing: Inuyasha/Kikyou, Inuyasha/Kagome
Universe: Canon
Word Count: 557
Prompt: Baggage Inuyasha Fanfic Week 172
Warning: Spoiler for Chapter 171-176
Summary: Inuyasha makes a decision to tell Kagome goodbye
His feelings of guilt overwhelmed his senses. He could not stop thinking about her for a single day. The events by the tree had forced his hand. He made decisions which went against all rational thought. And yet he felt at peace.
It was his realization that Naraku intended to kill Kikyou to rid himself of his feelings of love for Kikyou that had brought him to this juncture. Naraku had already killed her once. He could not bear the thought of her dying again.
He blamed himself for her death. If he had just trusted her more she would not have died. He owed her his life because she had died following after him. At this point if she had asked him to go to hell with him he would followed her without a second thought.
She claimed that his life belonged to her. Yet she was not willing to protect him. She had warned him that as part of her plan to destroy Naraku, he would grow stronger and stronger as he acquired more and more of the jewel. It was up to Inuyasha to protect himself. Kikyou would not lift a finger to help him.
He tried to claim that her life belonged to him, but she was not interested in his protection. She had told him that as soon as she left him she was headed to Naraku’s castle to confront him about his attempt on her life. His protection she spurned. She did not need his help to protect her from Naraku. She knew where Naraku was and yet she would not share that information with Inuyasha.
He was a fool. He was willing to give up a woman who soothed his soul and gave him peace, the first person he could trust, a woman who had cried for his sake, a woman who always stayed by his side for a woman spurned his protection, had created the monster that was trying to kill him and was never with him.
All because of the guilt that he felt. She was not the woman he wanted. The woman he wanted was on the other side of the well. He did not want to go through the well. If he did he would never see Kagome again.
He did not want to say goodbye even though he knew he had to do so. It was not fair to Kagome to ask her to stay with him when he had promised to protect Kikyou. Even though he had not told her that night by the tree, she knew what he was thinking. She had heard the entire conversation with Kikyou. She knew that he had sworn to protect Kikyou. They both knew that she could not remain by his side if he was off protecting Kikyou. It would not be fair to her.
And so he headed for the well. Ready to rid himself of the best thing in his life all because of guilt. It was the longest trek he had ever taken. He felt like he was walking to his own execution. The weight on his shoulder felt like he was actually carrying Kikyou on his back as he walked to well. Somehow, he was not meant to be happy in this life. Kagome had been his only hope and she soon would be history.
Author: landofthekwt
Rating: G
Genre: Delusions of guilt
Pairing: Inuyasha/Kikyou, Inuyasha/Kagome
Universe: Canon
Word Count: 557
Prompt: Baggage Inuyasha Fanfic Week 172
Warning: Spoiler for Chapter 171-176
Summary: Inuyasha makes a decision to tell Kagome goodbye
His feelings of guilt overwhelmed his senses. He could not stop thinking about her for a single day. The events by the tree had forced his hand. He made decisions which went against all rational thought. And yet he felt at peace.
It was his realization that Naraku intended to kill Kikyou to rid himself of his feelings of love for Kikyou that had brought him to this juncture. Naraku had already killed her once. He could not bear the thought of her dying again.
He blamed himself for her death. If he had just trusted her more she would not have died. He owed her his life because she had died following after him. At this point if she had asked him to go to hell with him he would followed her without a second thought.
She claimed that his life belonged to her. Yet she was not willing to protect him. She had warned him that as part of her plan to destroy Naraku, he would grow stronger and stronger as he acquired more and more of the jewel. It was up to Inuyasha to protect himself. Kikyou would not lift a finger to help him.
He tried to claim that her life belonged to him, but she was not interested in his protection. She had told him that as soon as she left him she was headed to Naraku’s castle to confront him about his attempt on her life. His protection she spurned. She did not need his help to protect her from Naraku. She knew where Naraku was and yet she would not share that information with Inuyasha.
He was a fool. He was willing to give up a woman who soothed his soul and gave him peace, the first person he could trust, a woman who had cried for his sake, a woman who always stayed by his side for a woman spurned his protection, had created the monster that was trying to kill him and was never with him.
All because of the guilt that he felt. She was not the woman he wanted. The woman he wanted was on the other side of the well. He did not want to go through the well. If he did he would never see Kagome again.
He did not want to say goodbye even though he knew he had to do so. It was not fair to Kagome to ask her to stay with him when he had promised to protect Kikyou. Even though he had not told her that night by the tree, she knew what he was thinking. She had heard the entire conversation with Kikyou. She knew that he had sworn to protect Kikyou. They both knew that she could not remain by his side if he was off protecting Kikyou. It would not be fair to her.
And so he headed for the well. Ready to rid himself of the best thing in his life all because of guilt. It was the longest trek he had ever taken. He felt like he was walking to his own execution. The weight on his shoulder felt like he was actually carrying Kikyou on his back as he walked to well. Somehow, he was not meant to be happy in this life. Kagome had been his only hope and she soon would be history.