Another two months ... another post
My life has undergone so many changes since over the past two months, that it has made me realize how much I miss blogging and the blogging community that I was a part of. I guess I'll give ya'll an update, but I won't make any promises as to how often I will be blogging now because we've seen how reliable that has been.
My contract with Viking Hall ended May 16, and you could not imagine how grateful I am that I am out of there. I LOVED living there, being around all the people, making so many close friends, and seeing them every day, but I HATED the upper management. Maybe if I had lived there as a resident instead of as an RA, it would have been more enjoyable. As it is, though, I do not have fond memories of the place. I wish I still lived there, because I was so close to so many people, and have not talked to any of them since I moved out, but that's one of the necessary evils. I know that a lot of them will be there for me if I ever need to call them up for something, but I just won't see them every day like I used to.
I have become very active in my fraternity. I don't know if I had mentioned the name before, or not, but I joined Tau Kappa Epsilon, the world's largest fraternity. I WANTED to pledge Tappa Kegga Brew, but there wasn't a chapter at CSU. :) I am the secretary for the fraternity this year, and I have made my role as an officer a very active one. I am one of the few members that has consistently been there all summer at meetings, and getting things to progress. Summer is a very hard time for fraternities, especially at a school like CSU where most of the student base isn't around. We've had a couple good parties this summer (the 4th of July party was killer!), and we've got some great ones lined up! Second week of school will bring the ever-popular Foam party back to the TKE house. Third Sunday in September is the first of two mixers that we are doing with Sororities on campus. I believe the Chi Delts will be the girls we mix with first.
Next week is the biennial meeting of the Grand Chapter of the international fraternity. I get to spend four days and three nights boozing it up on Bourbon Street with a thousand other Tekes! It's gonna be a blast!
Erica and I broke up on the day of our three month anniversary (June 23). After she moved out of the dorm and in with her grandparents, and I moved out of the dorm and back in with my parents, we didn't see each other AT ALL. We also didn't call each other much, and when we did it was normally for brief periods. Not the way a relationship is supposed to go. I'm upset that it didn't work out, but everything happens for a reason.
I'm working the night shift at the Quality Inn and Suites in Middleburg Heights. I HATE night shift. Doing it again reminds me of why I left it three years ago. It kills almost all plans to do ANYTHING fun. I can't hang out much with my fraternity brothers, because most of them want to hang out at night. I couldn't see my girlfriend, because I wanted to sleep during the day. It REALLY sucks. I'm glad I'm only doing this for the summer. I've got a HUGE loan coming for school, and should be getting something like 6 grand back after tuition is paid for, so that will go a long way to getting my apartment. I'm planning on moving somewhere near downtown. Getting a nice one bedroom apartment that's affordable. I will probably get a job on campus during the semester, maybe as a GA or research assistant again.
I've realized that I cause myself to be lonely in my life. I find someone who is wonderful to be with, and I cause her to want to leave me. I make some great friends, and don't put the effort into maintaining those relationships. I can trace this pattern back all the way to graduation from high school. I don't think I ever allowed myself to adjust. I've made some great friends that I wish I could build better relationships with. Ferrett, Gini, Tiff, Ash, Danielle, Ron, Travis, Anne - all local people who I could probably call up any time I wanted and hang out with, but just don't - if any of you read this, I hope you know that you are wonderful people, and that I am grateful to have met you and built a friendship. Take this as a commitment from me to start to build those friendships up more.
The same goes with all of my fraternity brothers. I don't know any of you as much as I wish that I did. I know that it is real hard for us to get together over the summer, but come fall, your ass will be seeing me a lot. I WILL get to know all of you, and WILL be hanging out a lot. Deal with it!
As soon as I get my apartment, I will host a housewarming party and everyone will be invited. Until then, we'll start rebuilding our friendships from the bottom up.
I don't feel like I've gotten out what I needed to to relieve my mind of it's burden, but I feel better than I did. I hope everything is well for everyone.
My contract with Viking Hall ended May 16, and you could not imagine how grateful I am that I am out of there. I LOVED living there, being around all the people, making so many close friends, and seeing them every day, but I HATED the upper management. Maybe if I had lived there as a resident instead of as an RA, it would have been more enjoyable. As it is, though, I do not have fond memories of the place. I wish I still lived there, because I was so close to so many people, and have not talked to any of them since I moved out, but that's one of the necessary evils. I know that a lot of them will be there for me if I ever need to call them up for something, but I just won't see them every day like I used to.
I have become very active in my fraternity. I don't know if I had mentioned the name before, or not, but I joined Tau Kappa Epsilon, the world's largest fraternity. I WANTED to pledge Tappa Kegga Brew, but there wasn't a chapter at CSU. :) I am the secretary for the fraternity this year, and I have made my role as an officer a very active one. I am one of the few members that has consistently been there all summer at meetings, and getting things to progress. Summer is a very hard time for fraternities, especially at a school like CSU where most of the student base isn't around. We've had a couple good parties this summer (the 4th of July party was killer!), and we've got some great ones lined up! Second week of school will bring the ever-popular Foam party back to the TKE house. Third Sunday in September is the first of two mixers that we are doing with Sororities on campus. I believe the Chi Delts will be the girls we mix with first.
Next week is the biennial meeting of the Grand Chapter of the international fraternity. I get to spend four days and three nights boozing it up on Bourbon Street with a thousand other Tekes! It's gonna be a blast!
Erica and I broke up on the day of our three month anniversary (June 23). After she moved out of the dorm and in with her grandparents, and I moved out of the dorm and back in with my parents, we didn't see each other AT ALL. We also didn't call each other much, and when we did it was normally for brief periods. Not the way a relationship is supposed to go. I'm upset that it didn't work out, but everything happens for a reason.
I'm working the night shift at the Quality Inn and Suites in Middleburg Heights. I HATE night shift. Doing it again reminds me of why I left it three years ago. It kills almost all plans to do ANYTHING fun. I can't hang out much with my fraternity brothers, because most of them want to hang out at night. I couldn't see my girlfriend, because I wanted to sleep during the day. It REALLY sucks. I'm glad I'm only doing this for the summer. I've got a HUGE loan coming for school, and should be getting something like 6 grand back after tuition is paid for, so that will go a long way to getting my apartment. I'm planning on moving somewhere near downtown. Getting a nice one bedroom apartment that's affordable. I will probably get a job on campus during the semester, maybe as a GA or research assistant again.
I've realized that I cause myself to be lonely in my life. I find someone who is wonderful to be with, and I cause her to want to leave me. I make some great friends, and don't put the effort into maintaining those relationships. I can trace this pattern back all the way to graduation from high school. I don't think I ever allowed myself to adjust. I've made some great friends that I wish I could build better relationships with. Ferrett, Gini, Tiff, Ash, Danielle, Ron, Travis, Anne - all local people who I could probably call up any time I wanted and hang out with, but just don't - if any of you read this, I hope you know that you are wonderful people, and that I am grateful to have met you and built a friendship. Take this as a commitment from me to start to build those friendships up more.
The same goes with all of my fraternity brothers. I don't know any of you as much as I wish that I did. I know that it is real hard for us to get together over the summer, but come fall, your ass will be seeing me a lot. I WILL get to know all of you, and WILL be hanging out a lot. Deal with it!
As soon as I get my apartment, I will host a housewarming party and everyone will be invited. Until then, we'll start rebuilding our friendships from the bottom up.
I don't feel like I've gotten out what I needed to to relieve my mind of it's burden, but I feel better than I did. I hope everything is well for everyone.