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[iwontloseyou]

Well now. Today is such a weird day. Yesterday was such a bad day. I had a lot of fun at Mobius. I also felt lonely.. very lonely. people were talking to me and hanging out with me but no. not really. ahh... i am just so confused. about everything, about my friends and who i trust. and about whoi am, who i like, who i can stand and im realizing i cant stand many people. I cant stand when people are conceited and i hate it when people lie. I really hate a lot. i should stop hating so much. i cant though, and the more i think about it, the more i cant stop thinking about it. the more i seem to hate everyone, even my friends. i hate a lot of things. too many fucking things. ARGHH. How are you supposed to ignore everybodies little problems? how are you supposed to just get people to listen or understand you. Its just not so simple i realize, i dont just realize, i know. I wish someone would just tell me what to do about everything because i am always doing something wrong always making someone so angry. I cant make anything right for anyone. i cant make anyone happier than they were before they saw me. usually just more sad. i cant help anyone. AHH.. .
goodbye
lotus