Whoever remembers you bitter, fuck 'em, they'll come back for more
Well this week went beyond long enough.
I've been spending my days pointlessly. Working for no cash. Smoking ridiculous amounts of cigarettes and pot, which is shutting me down. Failing exams. Sleeping without dreaming. And playing my guitar. Doesn't help when I recieve a 190 dollar ticket and a warning about my presence in Alberta and don't get to go to Calgary because of cash flow. I haven't drawn a single thing in over a month. I can hardly think straight anymore. I get angered very easily these days. And everything that ever happens seems to upset me somehow. I've made to many mistakes in my time. To many to fix. I mistake my problems with everyone around me. My problem is me. I wish I could find a way to accuratley apologize to everyone I've mislead or hurt. I was so blinded with trying to be a good person that I've become the worst. My emotions get in the way of everything and my mind is warped and fragile. I have to many problems to want to better myself. All I want to do is play my guitar and sleep until the day I die. Fuck, see... I'm causing so much fucking drama because of my head! I need sobriety.
I've been spending my days pointlessly. Working for no cash. Smoking ridiculous amounts of cigarettes and pot, which is shutting me down. Failing exams. Sleeping without dreaming. And playing my guitar. Doesn't help when I recieve a 190 dollar ticket and a warning about my presence in Alberta and don't get to go to Calgary because of cash flow. I haven't drawn a single thing in over a month. I can hardly think straight anymore. I get angered very easily these days. And everything that ever happens seems to upset me somehow. I've made to many mistakes in my time. To many to fix. I mistake my problems with everyone around me. My problem is me. I wish I could find a way to accuratley apologize to everyone I've mislead or hurt. I was so blinded with trying to be a good person that I've become the worst. My emotions get in the way of everything and my mind is warped and fragile. I have to many problems to want to better myself. All I want to do is play my guitar and sleep until the day I die. Fuck, see... I'm causing so much fucking drama because of my head! I need sobriety.