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of all things you wouldn't think applesauce would make your teeth hurt.
so i had soccer today and realized that im going to suck this season because guess what? my lungs have packed up and moved away and are like, haha see what happens when you smoke? what now sucka.
and
im having all these craving recently.
like, for muffins for instance.
and for people, there are three boys in my life that are driving me wild.
and for not doing my work and for teachers and especially for europe and getting fucked up on school nights
and doing all the things i swore i would never never do.
and. for being someone else. i have the weirdest craving to be anyone but myself. i am so sick and tired of being this. me. im trapped in my world in my body in my order in these terrible structures that i work so hard to perfect but really they are just shit shit shitty.
but anyways. enough of this depression shit i dwell on. i just have to go with it. just ride the life wave, haha.
but really, i want to let go of these silly expectations and doubts and just be simple minded and for once take everything at face value. at least try. becuae my damn imagination is really fucking things up.
alrighty well off i go to open my physics textbook and put it in front of me wihle i dont read it and talk online and play on that online bubblerap site.
ps. i am so super excited for grimmauldi's i can't even explain friday is good and i am just so super excited
so i had soccer today and realized that im going to suck this season because guess what? my lungs have packed up and moved away and are like, haha see what happens when you smoke? what now sucka.
and
im having all these craving recently.
like, for muffins for instance.
and for people, there are three boys in my life that are driving me wild.
and for not doing my work and for teachers and especially for europe and getting fucked up on school nights
and doing all the things i swore i would never never do.
and. for being someone else. i have the weirdest craving to be anyone but myself. i am so sick and tired of being this. me. im trapped in my world in my body in my order in these terrible structures that i work so hard to perfect but really they are just shit shit shitty.
but anyways. enough of this depression shit i dwell on. i just have to go with it. just ride the life wave, haha.
but really, i want to let go of these silly expectations and doubts and just be simple minded and for once take everything at face value. at least try. becuae my damn imagination is really fucking things up.
alrighty well off i go to open my physics textbook and put it in front of me wihle i dont read it and talk online and play on that online bubblerap site.
ps. i am so super excited for grimmauldi's i can't even explain friday is good and i am just so super excited