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ŦΦωαŋđą,
Righter of wrongs!
Queen beyond compare!
Hey, you have got to have goals in life, right? I just tend to make mine interesting. Why live a boring life? Especially since it's widely accepted that this is the only one you'll get. I personally don't think that this is the only life we will live, for the same reasons I don't think earth is the only planet with life on it. Wouldn't that just be an atrocious waste of potential? So, whether or not I will get a shot at this again, I want to do what is most fulfilling. If that means that I will never be married or have children, so be it. I've never really wanted to live the steriotypical life of a girl. In fact, I've never wanted to live out any stereotype at all. I simply never found one that I liked. They are, by nature, confining and lack substance and creativity.
Yesterday, I went with my heterosexual life mate to the mall. I don't often go to the mall, and when I do I make it worth-while. This day, I happened to be eating a mango-pecan ice cream cone while Spackle ( my h.l.m) was playing with a massage chair. As she got up, I noticed an advertisement on the wall with a young girl 'modeling' another product of the store. She wore a white tank top, with white shorts, and she had board straight brown hair, clear skin, and no distinguishing marks on her whatsoever.
I turned to Spackle and said, " I never wanted to be like her, you know why?"
"Because that would be boring," she replied.
"For the most part. I mean....if you look at her, she has all the qualities of a blank slate. She is, in essence, an empty, stark white canvas. Who wants to live their life like that? I don't want to die without a few scars. I don't want to live my life avoiding the influence of all the things that paint you with their beauty and experience," I spouted out in what turned into my usual ranting.
Now that I look back on that girl and think again, all she gained from trying to keep herself pure was the ability to be used as everyone elses bilboard.
Is it possible to be 'awake', yet still walk in the dream? If I make the dream my own, I will walk in it any time I please, but I refuse to participate in a world controlled by others. I am no ones marianette. It's true that I notice things that some don't, and that I am open minded enough not to close off new possibilities. In that way, some consider me to be awake. However, if I want to leave this place, I can go somewhere that you will never find me. It is also true that I am not an excellent person by anyones standards but mine, and that's alright. Who else should believe in me but me? I know the most of myself, so technically I am the most qualified. I know I have faults, but I also know that I mean no harm. If there were a better way to go, then it would find me. So far, I've enjoyed this being, so I have no doubt that I will continue to be content.
Righter of wrongs!
Queen beyond compare!
Hey, you have got to have goals in life, right? I just tend to make mine interesting. Why live a boring life? Especially since it's widely accepted that this is the only one you'll get. I personally don't think that this is the only life we will live, for the same reasons I don't think earth is the only planet with life on it. Wouldn't that just be an atrocious waste of potential? So, whether or not I will get a shot at this again, I want to do what is most fulfilling. If that means that I will never be married or have children, so be it. I've never really wanted to live the steriotypical life of a girl. In fact, I've never wanted to live out any stereotype at all. I simply never found one that I liked. They are, by nature, confining and lack substance and creativity.
Yesterday, I went with my heterosexual life mate to the mall. I don't often go to the mall, and when I do I make it worth-while. This day, I happened to be eating a mango-pecan ice cream cone while Spackle ( my h.l.m) was playing with a massage chair. As she got up, I noticed an advertisement on the wall with a young girl 'modeling' another product of the store. She wore a white tank top, with white shorts, and she had board straight brown hair, clear skin, and no distinguishing marks on her whatsoever.
I turned to Spackle and said, " I never wanted to be like her, you know why?"
"Because that would be boring," she replied.
"For the most part. I mean....if you look at her, she has all the qualities of a blank slate. She is, in essence, an empty, stark white canvas. Who wants to live their life like that? I don't want to die without a few scars. I don't want to live my life avoiding the influence of all the things that paint you with their beauty and experience," I spouted out in what turned into my usual ranting.
Now that I look back on that girl and think again, all she gained from trying to keep herself pure was the ability to be used as everyone elses bilboard.
Is it possible to be 'awake', yet still walk in the dream? If I make the dream my own, I will walk in it any time I please, but I refuse to participate in a world controlled by others. I am no ones marianette. It's true that I notice things that some don't, and that I am open minded enough not to close off new possibilities. In that way, some consider me to be awake. However, if I want to leave this place, I can go somewhere that you will never find me. It is also true that I am not an excellent person by anyones standards but mine, and that's alright. Who else should believe in me but me? I know the most of myself, so technically I am the most qualified. I know I have faults, but I also know that I mean no harm. If there were a better way to go, then it would find me. So far, I've enjoyed this being, so I have no doubt that I will continue to be content.