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i imagine they will all come out in due time.
so i've had quite the weekend, flat tire and all. yup, i had the first flat tire this weekend, in the middle of nowhere. just me and a country road. i've been waiting for it to happen for quite some time. for a bit there is was rather frightening or disconcerting or some such but after awhile i realized how nice of an evening it was and just enjoyed sitting in my car, the breeze blowing in.
at the moment i feel this awful quietness... i'm sitting in my friend's dorm room. part of me wants to go on back to my own room but... i feel that i shouldn't yet. i haven't really told anyone yet.
nights are always the hardest because they are so quiet. it's only the first night, but i suppose that i will get used to it and perhaps even enjoy missing him, if that makes sense.
so i drove back to stillwater today and while i was listening to the radio, all the right songs played. a kind of joy, an utter happiness took me over. it's a wonderfuk thing to know you are right where you are supposed to be. there is nothing that should be different. there is nothing that should change. well i imagine there are things that should, like the distance, but oh well. i just know i'm right where i need to be, doing exactly what i need to do.
and then there was some other feeling that's been lurking about and i realized i felt infinite. and young in the good way. and it's all so wonderful.
so i've had quite the weekend, flat tire and all. yup, i had the first flat tire this weekend, in the middle of nowhere. just me and a country road. i've been waiting for it to happen for quite some time. for a bit there is was rather frightening or disconcerting or some such but after awhile i realized how nice of an evening it was and just enjoyed sitting in my car, the breeze blowing in.
at the moment i feel this awful quietness... i'm sitting in my friend's dorm room. part of me wants to go on back to my own room but... i feel that i shouldn't yet. i haven't really told anyone yet.
nights are always the hardest because they are so quiet. it's only the first night, but i suppose that i will get used to it and perhaps even enjoy missing him, if that makes sense.
so i drove back to stillwater today and while i was listening to the radio, all the right songs played. a kind of joy, an utter happiness took me over. it's a wonderfuk thing to know you are right where you are supposed to be. there is nothing that should be different. there is nothing that should change. well i imagine there are things that should, like the distance, but oh well. i just know i'm right where i need to be, doing exactly what i need to do.
and then there was some other feeling that's been lurking about and i realized i felt infinite. and young in the good way. and it's all so wonderful.