im a fuck up
i fucked up... just like i always do... for the past few days i have just fucking eaten and eaten probably enough to fucking fill a football stadium. Im a fucking cow. No more! Tomorrow I am back to nothing... full on fast. Oh shit, if i can't i don't know what im going to do. I hate this disease but i think the only part i hate is not being able to succeed at it. i'm about to cut the shit out of myself. I guarantee im back to where i started. I'm not going to weigh for a couple of days though. I hate myself
peace
peace