She was the Queen of Teen and Sweet Doomsday...with the flower face...
My dearest journal,
What can I say? I e-mailed him back after he e-mailed me finally in response. I ache for his friendship again, and find I even still dream about him occasionally. I'm not sure why. I miss him. I admit I miss him a lot. I miss friendship I suppose. But I do not want to go into hysterics. I am in fact meeting a lot of friends here. Many are very nice, some in the classes I am taking in school and others I met around the city. I somewhat miss my teenage life, the one where I had so many friends and was so busy. I miss the simplicity of it all. But again, it's fruitless to dwell on the past, since you cannot change it. I like it here for the most part. I miss a lot of people though. Not so much my family, though in admittance I occasionally do miss them a great deal.
Went to a VTM LARP the other day. Some of it was quite interesting. There was anywhere from 30-50 people there that day. I may join as a Toreador, but I'm not quite sure yet. I am however dying for the Changeling LARP to be revived. Reddz is a nice guy and I hope to become further friends with him, despite his busy schedule. They have other VTM LARPs here, all registered with OWBN. They also have a werewolf one here. As I said, we'll see.
My dreams are filled with the past. It's hard to escape it when that's all your subconscious dwells on. Perhaps even past faces that deal with the future. My dreams tend to do that. But at this point I'm uncertain.
School is going well, I'm eager to graduate next year. It's not that I dislike school, it's that I want to get into a career so I can start making some money. Money, money, money... it's something that's important unfortunately.
I'm hoping one of the places I applied to for part-time work will hire me. So far no luck. It's that my resume is excellent, but my availability is bad. My school is smack in the middle of the day. Doesn't give me much to work with when searching for some extra income.
April 1st is coming fast and soon we'll have some housemates. I admit I'm a little wary, but I hope it works out well. Right now I'm on a small spring break. I go back to school next week.
Anyways, I can't think of much else to write right now...
}Ciao
_______
It's funny how
Even now
You still support me after all of the things that I've done
You're so good to me
Waiting patiently
And isn't it sad that you still have to ask if I care
I never said I was perfect
But I can take you away
Walk on shells tonight
Can't do right tonight
And you can't say a word
Cause I leap down your throat
So uptight am I
I never said I was perfect
But I can drive you home
I got down on myself
Working too hard
Driving myself to death
Trying to beat out the faults in my head
What a mess I've made
Sure we all make mistakes
But they see me so large
That they think I'm immune to the pain
Walk on shells tonight
Can't do wrong tonight
And you can't say the word cause I need to know ....
I'm praying for a miracle
But I won't hold my breath
I never said I was perfect
But can you take me home
What can I say? I e-mailed him back after he e-mailed me finally in response. I ache for his friendship again, and find I even still dream about him occasionally. I'm not sure why. I miss him. I admit I miss him a lot. I miss friendship I suppose. But I do not want to go into hysterics. I am in fact meeting a lot of friends here. Many are very nice, some in the classes I am taking in school and others I met around the city. I somewhat miss my teenage life, the one where I had so many friends and was so busy. I miss the simplicity of it all. But again, it's fruitless to dwell on the past, since you cannot change it. I like it here for the most part. I miss a lot of people though. Not so much my family, though in admittance I occasionally do miss them a great deal.
Went to a VTM LARP the other day. Some of it was quite interesting. There was anywhere from 30-50 people there that day. I may join as a Toreador, but I'm not quite sure yet. I am however dying for the Changeling LARP to be revived. Reddz is a nice guy and I hope to become further friends with him, despite his busy schedule. They have other VTM LARPs here, all registered with OWBN. They also have a werewolf one here. As I said, we'll see.
My dreams are filled with the past. It's hard to escape it when that's all your subconscious dwells on. Perhaps even past faces that deal with the future. My dreams tend to do that. But at this point I'm uncertain.
School is going well, I'm eager to graduate next year. It's not that I dislike school, it's that I want to get into a career so I can start making some money. Money, money, money... it's something that's important unfortunately.
I'm hoping one of the places I applied to for part-time work will hire me. So far no luck. It's that my resume is excellent, but my availability is bad. My school is smack in the middle of the day. Doesn't give me much to work with when searching for some extra income.
April 1st is coming fast and soon we'll have some housemates. I admit I'm a little wary, but I hope it works out well. Right now I'm on a small spring break. I go back to school next week.
Anyways, I can't think of much else to write right now...
}Ciao
_______
It's funny how
Even now
You still support me after all of the things that I've done
You're so good to me
Waiting patiently
And isn't it sad that you still have to ask if I care
I never said I was perfect
But I can take you away
Walk on shells tonight
Can't do right tonight
And you can't say a word
Cause I leap down your throat
So uptight am I
I never said I was perfect
But I can drive you home
I got down on myself
Working too hard
Driving myself to death
Trying to beat out the faults in my head
What a mess I've made
Sure we all make mistakes
But they see me so large
That they think I'm immune to the pain
Walk on shells tonight
Can't do wrong tonight
And you can't say the word cause I need to know ....
I'm praying for a miracle
But I won't hold my breath
I never said I was perfect
But can you take me home