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How does one get this, really?
This is embarrassing to admit, but I feel like financially, I'm in a rough spot again. I need to get back on the bandwagon. Our savings is basically Ryan's income. Mine is spent paycheck to paycheck to pay for bills. My biggest fear is financial ruin.
I guess there are worse things. I guess I have a job. At the moment I can still afford our apartment and get food on the table. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety about this. At work, all I can think about and do is count down to the next pay check. This is ridiculous. Sometimes I get super anxious and worried and sometimes it's about my mother, sometime it's about how I wanted to be more successful, and other times, it's about bills.
I think this might be my post holiday blues. My Con Ed bill is out of this world. I'm not sure why there is such a huge spike in costs. I'm not sure how to really get to the bottom of this.
:(
Meh.
This is embarrassing to admit, but I feel like financially, I'm in a rough spot again. I need to get back on the bandwagon. Our savings is basically Ryan's income. Mine is spent paycheck to paycheck to pay for bills. My biggest fear is financial ruin.
I guess there are worse things. I guess I have a job. At the moment I can still afford our apartment and get food on the table. I'm feeling a lot of anxiety about this. At work, all I can think about and do is count down to the next pay check. This is ridiculous. Sometimes I get super anxious and worried and sometimes it's about my mother, sometime it's about how I wanted to be more successful, and other times, it's about bills.
I think this might be my post holiday blues. My Con Ed bill is out of this world. I'm not sure why there is such a huge spike in costs. I'm not sure how to really get to the bottom of this.
:(
Meh.