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I kind of, you know, really don't like it here.
The most fun I've had in the past months+some was when I was playing with little kids at the Hope and Healing Center (a place I volunteer). At least I've reaffirmed that I love kids.
The people are very different from me. I think I'm among the poorest people here- like maybe 5-8% of the ppl here are as poor as I am. Don't even jump to conclusions- don't be stupid. I'm mentioning this because money gives you different experiences. I have had barely ANY of the experiences of the people here. I've never been to a highschool football game, never seen a real drama production, I've barely seen ANY of the US because we don't have money. I can't go out and buy clothing because I don't have the money. Even a nice restaurant is questionable since I don't have the money. Especially with this stock market crash- I don't know what's going to happen.
During this past weekend (parents weekend) my roommate Kristin went and bought a 26" LCD tv and a rug for the middle room. She also got a lot of clothing with her family and proceeded to yell at her parents right before they left, even though they just bought the huge tv.
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I've hung out with people... but really, I can only handle putting on an act one night a weekend.
My roommate HAS to be around people at least like 3/4th of her waking life and she absolutely LOVES it here and LOVES telling me how much she LOVES it here.
She also makes fun of me all the time for studying a lot. She likes to do this in front of a lot of people too- she tells them how all I do is study and pretty much not to even try to hang out with me. Which, considering I actually have hard classes that have homework every night, makes sense. She is taking extremely easy classes and barely ever has any homework. Every night, she goes to watch the OC with a group of girls for like 5 hrs since she has no homework.
She also makes fun of me for running. I mean seriously- is that something you can even make fun of someone for? If I say anything about running, she mentions how I would die if I don't get to go running.
Wth. She has gone to the gym once; she wasn't even sweaty when she came back. She doesn't really eat healthy despite the fact that her mother is a dietitian and her father lost like 100 pounds since he developed diabetes.
I don't know if she realizes that she's offending me- either she's jealous or trying to make other ppl dislike me so that they'll be her friend more than mine (our friends group is the same people a lot of the time). I'm not trying to sound haughty here- but I don't understand why she would be this way.
I'm complaining... but I do live with her and it does get frustrating- especially since I'm having such a hard time adjusting and have someone picking on me (I do stand up for myself but I am afraid of creating an awkward relationship btwn us) and constantly telling me how much she loves it here.
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Anyway... Summation: I don't like here; everyday I wish I was at home or still going to Metro, or at least with someone that is my friend. We don't even have a running club here, and I'm really angry that I Didn't join the XC team. I really should have.
I have no affiliation here. I have those who I could call friends but it's work to be with them. And most of the time, I don't have much to add to the conversation since I know nothing about what they're talking about. Especially since most of what they talk about is their school's DRAMA department, youtube videos (Which I hate), bad movies from the 80's, Twilight, and more youtube.
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At least I love my volunteering. I work with ages 1-10 from 10-2pm on Saturdays and I love it. Kids are so cute and innocent and it's great to see how different ages are capable of different cognitive abilities.
I start volunteering with inpatient kids at St. Judes next Wednesday and then every Monday from 5-9pm after that. Inpatient kids are those who have uncurable illnesses and are too sick to leave the hospital. It scares me a little. But, it's a good indication of if I can handle the work. Just being on the St. Judes campus makes me really want to start researching. I feel like I'm wasting time by not helping out in some way.
I don't know when I'll start at the Med (the Medical Center of Memphis) but I hope it's soon. I'm going to volunteer in the ER- I don't think I'm ready for the trauma unit yet. Hopefully I will be by next semester. I'll be working here immediately after working the HHC on Saturdays. Probably for like 3 hrs or so with Genna (who is my ride to HHC, I work with her there, and is my bio study-buddy). I have to buy scrubs to work here, :P.
It seems terrible that the best part of my life right now is volunteering. I don't like the people here... I don't know if I'll get used to it or what... I hope so... since I'm stuck here for the yr at least before I can even transfer.
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At the risk of being extremely cliche: being here is like a dull ache. It feels like I'm just waiting for any chance to go home or see Alex or see my friends. Like, this is temporary, even though it's going to take up 8 months of my year.
Summation: it sort of sucks....
The most fun I've had in the past months+some was when I was playing with little kids at the Hope and Healing Center (a place I volunteer). At least I've reaffirmed that I love kids.
The people are very different from me. I think I'm among the poorest people here- like maybe 5-8% of the ppl here are as poor as I am. Don't even jump to conclusions- don't be stupid. I'm mentioning this because money gives you different experiences. I have had barely ANY of the experiences of the people here. I've never been to a highschool football game, never seen a real drama production, I've barely seen ANY of the US because we don't have money. I can't go out and buy clothing because I don't have the money. Even a nice restaurant is questionable since I don't have the money. Especially with this stock market crash- I don't know what's going to happen.
During this past weekend (parents weekend) my roommate Kristin went and bought a 26" LCD tv and a rug for the middle room. She also got a lot of clothing with her family and proceeded to yell at her parents right before they left, even though they just bought the huge tv.
...................
I've hung out with people... but really, I can only handle putting on an act one night a weekend.
My roommate HAS to be around people at least like 3/4th of her waking life and she absolutely LOVES it here and LOVES telling me how much she LOVES it here.
She also makes fun of me all the time for studying a lot. She likes to do this in front of a lot of people too- she tells them how all I do is study and pretty much not to even try to hang out with me. Which, considering I actually have hard classes that have homework every night, makes sense. She is taking extremely easy classes and barely ever has any homework. Every night, she goes to watch the OC with a group of girls for like 5 hrs since she has no homework.
She also makes fun of me for running. I mean seriously- is that something you can even make fun of someone for? If I say anything about running, she mentions how I would die if I don't get to go running.
Wth. She has gone to the gym once; she wasn't even sweaty when she came back. She doesn't really eat healthy despite the fact that her mother is a dietitian and her father lost like 100 pounds since he developed diabetes.
I don't know if she realizes that she's offending me- either she's jealous or trying to make other ppl dislike me so that they'll be her friend more than mine (our friends group is the same people a lot of the time). I'm not trying to sound haughty here- but I don't understand why she would be this way.
I'm complaining... but I do live with her and it does get frustrating- especially since I'm having such a hard time adjusting and have someone picking on me (I do stand up for myself but I am afraid of creating an awkward relationship btwn us) and constantly telling me how much she loves it here.
...............
Anyway... Summation: I don't like here; everyday I wish I was at home or still going to Metro, or at least with someone that is my friend. We don't even have a running club here, and I'm really angry that I Didn't join the XC team. I really should have.
I have no affiliation here. I have those who I could call friends but it's work to be with them. And most of the time, I don't have much to add to the conversation since I know nothing about what they're talking about. Especially since most of what they talk about is their school's DRAMA department, youtube videos (Which I hate), bad movies from the 80's, Twilight, and more youtube.
..........
At least I love my volunteering. I work with ages 1-10 from 10-2pm on Saturdays and I love it. Kids are so cute and innocent and it's great to see how different ages are capable of different cognitive abilities.
I start volunteering with inpatient kids at St. Judes next Wednesday and then every Monday from 5-9pm after that. Inpatient kids are those who have uncurable illnesses and are too sick to leave the hospital. It scares me a little. But, it's a good indication of if I can handle the work. Just being on the St. Judes campus makes me really want to start researching. I feel like I'm wasting time by not helping out in some way.
I don't know when I'll start at the Med (the Medical Center of Memphis) but I hope it's soon. I'm going to volunteer in the ER- I don't think I'm ready for the trauma unit yet. Hopefully I will be by next semester. I'll be working here immediately after working the HHC on Saturdays. Probably for like 3 hrs or so with Genna (who is my ride to HHC, I work with her there, and is my bio study-buddy). I have to buy scrubs to work here, :P.
It seems terrible that the best part of my life right now is volunteering. I don't like the people here... I don't know if I'll get used to it or what... I hope so... since I'm stuck here for the yr at least before I can even transfer.
.......
At the risk of being extremely cliche: being here is like a dull ache. It feels like I'm just waiting for any chance to go home or see Alex or see my friends. Like, this is temporary, even though it's going to take up 8 months of my year.
Summation: it sort of sucks....