Muy frustrada
Basically... I have to sing on Tuesday, the 25th... and I'm scared out of my mind.. thang GOD the class is mainly older people. I have no idea what to sing... PEOPLE GIVE ME IDEAS!!!
Wow, this is taking me forever to write and I have no idea why...
I had massive nightmares last night... its hard when your "best friend" seems to be screwing you over with the guy you've liked... even worse when you've had that guy. So yes, nightmares... I don't like being ignored, I don't like wondering, I don't like being non-trusting because I used to trust EVERYONE. Now, I trust no one... now I think EVERYONE is just out to get me and screw me over, kinda makes me feel like hiding out in my room and not telling people where I am so I can avoid everything... but then I'm afraid I'm just being passive about whats bothering me and people will just get away with screwing me over. I just want to trust the people around me... and it fucking sux... when I'm all thin and gorgeous everyone will be better... I won't have to worry about a certain friend screwing me over with guys... its a sad commentary, but its the sad truth... so yes... I STILL LIKE THE GANGSTA GANGSTA... he's hot and I finally saw him again and was in his arms again... but its just not the same when he's calling your "best friend" (and I use the term loosely, very loosely).
I don't know why I'm even updating right now... I was gonna write about the party I didn't end up going to, but that wasn't very exciting... so I'm not really sure what to say right now. The Lords busted up that shit pretty damn fast. I'm super confused about my life and what I'm doing right now.
Why do I like a guy that obviously no good has been or is ever going to come from him... GOD THIS SUX
Wow, this is taking me forever to write and I have no idea why...
I had massive nightmares last night... its hard when your "best friend" seems to be screwing you over with the guy you've liked... even worse when you've had that guy. So yes, nightmares... I don't like being ignored, I don't like wondering, I don't like being non-trusting because I used to trust EVERYONE. Now, I trust no one... now I think EVERYONE is just out to get me and screw me over, kinda makes me feel like hiding out in my room and not telling people where I am so I can avoid everything... but then I'm afraid I'm just being passive about whats bothering me and people will just get away with screwing me over. I just want to trust the people around me... and it fucking sux... when I'm all thin and gorgeous everyone will be better... I won't have to worry about a certain friend screwing me over with guys... its a sad commentary, but its the sad truth... so yes... I STILL LIKE THE GANGSTA GANGSTA... he's hot and I finally saw him again and was in his arms again... but its just not the same when he's calling your "best friend" (and I use the term loosely, very loosely).
I don't know why I'm even updating right now... I was gonna write about the party I didn't end up going to, but that wasn't very exciting... so I'm not really sure what to say right now. The Lords busted up that shit pretty damn fast. I'm super confused about my life and what I'm doing right now.
Why do I like a guy that obviously no good has been or is ever going to come from him... GOD THIS SUX