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Do you ever get so overwhelmed that you just sit and do nothing because you have no idea where to start?.... ya, welcome to my life right now. I have soooo much stuff to pack (alll my clothes and shoes, desks, dressers, couches, tv stands, bathroom stuff, bed, dishes and kitchen stuff...) AHHHH and I have to write a 20 page paper due by next Wednesday on WAR which I know noooothing about.... then I have three finals and one test all next week. Not to mention graduation next Saturday..and on that Sunday we're packing up a UHaul and moving me back home which means I will spend the 7 days before I start work unpacking all my shit and trying to figure out where it all fits in my room at home. Not to mention my room at home has become a random storage area for all the stuff I don't want to bring to school but don't want to get rid of. omg. I'm fucked.
I was a pretty big waste of life during little 500 week and I drank 4 of the 6 days of the event which means I gained about 4 lbs and I feel like shit even now! But, i did have an amazing time. On Monday I went out with Alex to some hippie house party where i DID NOT fit in and we left there and walked to the bars and stayed there for a long long while. Tuesday I went out too.. OH for Ashley's 22nd Birthday we went to Kilroys at like 5pm and played beer pong there until about 10 and then Ash and I got pizza and walked home and passssed out! Oh I got in a big fight with Matt that night..took 5 hours and my eyes were swollen from crying for the entire next day. ew. Wednesday I stayed in and tried to be productive but of course I wasnt... I went home on Thursday to get my hair done and then drove back to school early on Friday. Friday Ash and I went to a HUGE house party and had a blast..this guy had his parents in town and they bought over 20 kegs that whole day! Ash and I ended up leaving there around 9, went to Sports to eat and then Alex picked us up to go to a gay house party and then we left there and went back to Sports to drink...we ended the night relatively early b/c we woke up at 8am on Saturday and started drinking at 9am at the PIKE party where I got wassssted! We went to the race where I took several "naps" hahaha and then we went to a pool and hung out for awhile came home and passed out. it was SUCH a long week but totally worth it and I think I really rocked out for my last little 500 ;)
Matt was a bit of downer during the week however b/c he called me on hmm..Friday to tell me he got an apartment and was moving pretty much ASAP. It just finalized in my mind how different our lives are now and I've been pretty upset about it since he told me. I just feel like my best friend has totally deserted me and left me to my own devices without a care in the world. I don't understand how you can love somoene for sooo long and then all of a sudden just be done with it. I understand that guys deal differently than girls and just forgetting and moving on is probably easier for him but it's insulting to me that he can do that..it makes me feel like I never mattered to him and it's just pretty devastating to me. I don't know...... it's so hard not being involved in his life anymore...I want so badly to buy him a housewarming gift, or to help him decorate or move in but that's not my place anymore and it hurts. A lot.
Hmm... I don't really have much else to say...just really stressed and I just keep praying that things are gonna get easier...I've been too sad for too long.
I was a pretty big waste of life during little 500 week and I drank 4 of the 6 days of the event which means I gained about 4 lbs and I feel like shit even now! But, i did have an amazing time. On Monday I went out with Alex to some hippie house party where i DID NOT fit in and we left there and walked to the bars and stayed there for a long long while. Tuesday I went out too.. OH for Ashley's 22nd Birthday we went to Kilroys at like 5pm and played beer pong there until about 10 and then Ash and I got pizza and walked home and passssed out! Oh I got in a big fight with Matt that night..took 5 hours and my eyes were swollen from crying for the entire next day. ew. Wednesday I stayed in and tried to be productive but of course I wasnt... I went home on Thursday to get my hair done and then drove back to school early on Friday. Friday Ash and I went to a HUGE house party and had a blast..this guy had his parents in town and they bought over 20 kegs that whole day! Ash and I ended up leaving there around 9, went to Sports to eat and then Alex picked us up to go to a gay house party and then we left there and went back to Sports to drink...we ended the night relatively early b/c we woke up at 8am on Saturday and started drinking at 9am at the PIKE party where I got wassssted! We went to the race where I took several "naps" hahaha and then we went to a pool and hung out for awhile came home and passed out. it was SUCH a long week but totally worth it and I think I really rocked out for my last little 500 ;)
Matt was a bit of downer during the week however b/c he called me on hmm..Friday to tell me he got an apartment and was moving pretty much ASAP. It just finalized in my mind how different our lives are now and I've been pretty upset about it since he told me. I just feel like my best friend has totally deserted me and left me to my own devices without a care in the world. I don't understand how you can love somoene for sooo long and then all of a sudden just be done with it. I understand that guys deal differently than girls and just forgetting and moving on is probably easier for him but it's insulting to me that he can do that..it makes me feel like I never mattered to him and it's just pretty devastating to me. I don't know...... it's so hard not being involved in his life anymore...I want so badly to buy him a housewarming gift, or to help him decorate or move in but that's not my place anymore and it hurts. A lot.
Hmm... I don't really have much else to say...just really stressed and I just keep praying that things are gonna get easier...I've been too sad for too long.