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what was i ever kidding?!
i'm not cool! i'm not collected! i'm not detached! i'm not ready! i'm not packed and i'm not packing! what the hell is this?! leaving camp leaving my babies my best friends in the world the only people i've known. and now nan's gotta go and pull this crap. i can't take it. i can't believe it. i have no brain and no time. NO time. it is the tenth. i move in on the twentieth. i think. probably. if not the twenty-third. i'm writing it out because i can't bare to look at the numbers. i have a lot i want to do but that's not as important as everything in me just absolutely flipping out. where am i?! i was suppose to be ready to leave. shit. all the people? gabby!? i saw her grand total of like 4 times this summer. how?! lt. this is terrible. everything is terrible. i've never had so much to miss before. i've never had to leave so much i love before. i don't know how this works. i am absolutely ridiculous. not only do i have to do a whole crapload of crap, and see a whole crapload of people, and deal with leaving people, but i also have to deal with whole school full of new people. what the freak why didn't this ever phase me before? i can't breathe.
i'm not cool! i'm not collected! i'm not detached! i'm not ready! i'm not packed and i'm not packing! what the hell is this?! leaving camp leaving my babies my best friends in the world the only people i've known. and now nan's gotta go and pull this crap. i can't take it. i can't believe it. i have no brain and no time. NO time. it is the tenth. i move in on the twentieth. i think. probably. if not the twenty-third. i'm writing it out because i can't bare to look at the numbers. i have a lot i want to do but that's not as important as everything in me just absolutely flipping out. where am i?! i was suppose to be ready to leave. shit. all the people? gabby!? i saw her grand total of like 4 times this summer. how?! lt. this is terrible. everything is terrible. i've never had so much to miss before. i've never had to leave so much i love before. i don't know how this works. i am absolutely ridiculous. not only do i have to do a whole crapload of crap, and see a whole crapload of people, and deal with leaving people, but i also have to deal with whole school full of new people. what the freak why didn't this ever phase me before? i can't breathe.