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+ its about time the weather starts getting absolutely gorgeous!! I think i have that seasonal depression thing where if one doesn't receive enough sunlight...then they get bitchy. who knows, im bitchy all the time, rain or shine. its a talent. Well, this past weekend i have a rather interesting visit to vcu with my buddy. Id say the best parts were: getting a new lipgloss by estee lauder and smashbox, which sorta leads me to what i really want to journal about...hahaha. fashion and makeup. I was asked my some girls that are going to ringdance to do their makeup and it hit me that i could make a portfolio of my work in makeup and try to score a job at clinique or something...clinique i really want to work for...or chanel. thatd be so awesome....best summer ever. yeah i just plan on doing this to truck me through college so im not a broke ass bum. i can do makeup and have money. sounds like a life to me. but yea....i need to get my shit together in order to score some good jobs. bleh bleh bleh. i just want to sit at the beach or something and get my pale ass colored. I really just feel like going off on nonsense tangents...but, i can't. i have a lot on my mind that i really can't just put into sentences which really angers me...its all from last nights conversations that ive had...dear lord. atleast my eyes werent as puffy as i thought they would be. thats a plus. and i looked cute today, i wore green, and green is my fav color. i just felt so bright and i wore my fav lipgloss. all i needed was a huge ass great dane (prefably female) and id be a set girl. Honestly, i think i would just break down in joy....green wardrobe, fav lipgloss, sunny day, and a huge dog with me...and a job in makeup preparing for college life and ohhh man my future is bright. oh im so happpy, i need to savor this feeling. soooo happy. i love you, i love light, i love dogs, i love the spca, i love smiling, i love feeling good...oh i just love. so much love. im gonna go shine. later

maybe today i dont feel like breaking your heart....

so

<3doctor.