No Meaning
My life will never be worth anything. Everything I have ever worked for is shit. I am homeless, I have to drop out of school so I can get a job. My family does nothing but down me. My daughter isn't here, my husband isn't here. I just wish I were dead. Sometime keep me holding on, so floss of dignity keeps me holding on even though my heart is screaming NO MORE. Maybe it's Hannah. Maybe it's my unselfish love for myself. If I could do one thing for myself in this given situation I would die. I would just fall asleep and never wake up, but I can't I have to keep pushing and hoping that there is something out there for me. I have to pray that there is a life beyond the one I am living now for me.
I tried to just go asleep so I can forget just for a fucking second but I can't sleep. Why can't anything go right for me? I know there is Karma and I know I have fucked up but I have paid so much already. I have tried to give back too. I try so hard to be a good person because I am one because I want to be one! I am so ready to just give in but I can't.
I wish someone were here to talk to. I wish someone were here to hold me. NO ONE GIVES A SHIT! My mom and sister are doing their thing and John would be here, but he's in Ohio. Thank God Hannah isn't here, she doesn't need to see me like this. I just have to keep hanging on. Why can't I be able to be happy and stay that way for once? What did I do to deserve this?
I tried to just go asleep so I can forget just for a fucking second but I can't sleep. Why can't anything go right for me? I know there is Karma and I know I have fucked up but I have paid so much already. I have tried to give back too. I try so hard to be a good person because I am one because I want to be one! I am so ready to just give in but I can't.
I wish someone were here to talk to. I wish someone were here to hold me. NO ONE GIVES A SHIT! My mom and sister are doing their thing and John would be here, but he's in Ohio. Thank God Hannah isn't here, she doesn't need to see me like this. I just have to keep hanging on. Why can't I be able to be happy and stay that way for once? What did I do to deserve this?