because nobody reads these anymore...
i don't even know where to begin... which doesn't matter because live journal is effectivly dead anyway since myspace came along. but i need to have a worryfree rant. i don't want any of my friends or my girlfriend to even see this only nameless faces and faceless names. i feel like a hermit i honestly don't even know if i still have friends anymore. i haven't talked to april in weeks and its usually weeks in between talks anyway, same with randy. they are my two best friends in the world and i can't even bother to pick up a phone. april called me a couple weeks ago wanting to hang out on a saturday and i never even called her, i feel like such an asshole. i keep pushing my friends away and i don't know why. i spend all my time either working or being with my gf and i feel guilty if i want to do something without her. i have so little time to myself i feel guilty not hanging out with her and yet i feel guilty not hanging out with them either, it doens' matter what i do i feel like i am always dissapointing someone maybe i am just disssapointing mysalf . i wish i could just take a week offf from myu life get my head straight and reconnect with people.