This is my Cry on the mountains. My gift for you
this is how i feel, this is how i felt, and i garuntee, that this right now, this feeling is how i will always feel.
Humanity. Homo Sapien. This is what i have to say to all those fucks out there.
YOU WEAK, SELFISH, NARCISTIC, UNWORTHY, SHALLOW HUMAN BEINGS!!!
do you think, for one istant that your life is part of some GOD DAMN scheme to make a world a better place. You want to make a world a better place, do one of two things
A: KILL YOURSELF! dont worry people will get over it.
B: throw away ALL natural ties to being a human. Pride, Need to reproduce, The constant search for meaning.
Ill tell you one thing. If you cant see past something, if you cant get over something by any means necessary then you dont deserve to live. I'm sorry, if shit happens, get the fuck up, and give it to them back ( THIS IS WHAT IM DOING NOW!!!!)
Try giving up something you want more than anything on this world, Try to turn your back on yourself, Then when you know how that feels, do it again, and again, and fucking again. Till its routine, you have no idea how much strength, and how much you will become greater. Now dont do this for that sole purpose, do it because for another person they can be happy, they wont have any discomfort. SACRIFICE! thats the key, thats what i have done all my life. WHAT I WANT I DONT GET! WHAT I WANT I WILL NEVER HAVE!
what i want is someone not just anyone, someone that doesnt need to look at a physical being to see true beauty. Some thing that can look at Pure ugliness and fall in love with it.
Don't think for one instance, that i need anyones fucking help. I have gone back through 1 year of hell, i have survived 20 years of lonliness, pain, and betrayel.
I never blamed myself at all, I never cut, tried to commit suicide, or any of that shit, I gained the second most primary of Emmotion.
HATE!!!! the very thing that keeps my heart going, Hate. I learned from it, i know there are no happy endings, not for a person like me. Not from someone that at everyone from the outside. I eliminated my main ego. I dont care if i die tonight, tomorrow or at the end of this post. I know for one thing, that when that time comes, I will feel relieved, happy, and joyful. That i can go to a place where my needs are irrelevent, more irrelevent that it is now.
This isnt about any one person, or group of people, this is about all of this as a whole. CUT THE FUCKING SHIT! When humanity is fucked, its not going to matter who you are, what you have done, and where you are now. Its a matter on what you do, when the cards are stacked against you. Are you going to cry and beg for you life. Or you going to kill, hurt, and mame, so you just might save it.
thats it thats all i have to say, no thats a lie, i have so much more, but i feel after you read this, and if you do, thats good, youll understand that this is just the tip of the iceberg.
Im out, and as much as i hate you all, i love you. You all have so much potential to be better. Just realise it.
Humanity. Homo Sapien. This is what i have to say to all those fucks out there.
YOU WEAK, SELFISH, NARCISTIC, UNWORTHY, SHALLOW HUMAN BEINGS!!!
do you think, for one istant that your life is part of some GOD DAMN scheme to make a world a better place. You want to make a world a better place, do one of two things
A: KILL YOURSELF! dont worry people will get over it.
B: throw away ALL natural ties to being a human. Pride, Need to reproduce, The constant search for meaning.
Ill tell you one thing. If you cant see past something, if you cant get over something by any means necessary then you dont deserve to live. I'm sorry, if shit happens, get the fuck up, and give it to them back ( THIS IS WHAT IM DOING NOW!!!!)
Try giving up something you want more than anything on this world, Try to turn your back on yourself, Then when you know how that feels, do it again, and again, and fucking again. Till its routine, you have no idea how much strength, and how much you will become greater. Now dont do this for that sole purpose, do it because for another person they can be happy, they wont have any discomfort. SACRIFICE! thats the key, thats what i have done all my life. WHAT I WANT I DONT GET! WHAT I WANT I WILL NEVER HAVE!
what i want is someone not just anyone, someone that doesnt need to look at a physical being to see true beauty. Some thing that can look at Pure ugliness and fall in love with it.
Don't think for one instance, that i need anyones fucking help. I have gone back through 1 year of hell, i have survived 20 years of lonliness, pain, and betrayel.
I never blamed myself at all, I never cut, tried to commit suicide, or any of that shit, I gained the second most primary of Emmotion.
HATE!!!! the very thing that keeps my heart going, Hate. I learned from it, i know there are no happy endings, not for a person like me. Not from someone that at everyone from the outside. I eliminated my main ego. I dont care if i die tonight, tomorrow or at the end of this post. I know for one thing, that when that time comes, I will feel relieved, happy, and joyful. That i can go to a place where my needs are irrelevent, more irrelevent that it is now.
This isnt about any one person, or group of people, this is about all of this as a whole. CUT THE FUCKING SHIT! When humanity is fucked, its not going to matter who you are, what you have done, and where you are now. Its a matter on what you do, when the cards are stacked against you. Are you going to cry and beg for you life. Or you going to kill, hurt, and mame, so you just might save it.
thats it thats all i have to say, no thats a lie, i have so much more, but i feel after you read this, and if you do, thats good, youll understand that this is just the tip of the iceberg.
Im out, and as much as i hate you all, i love you. You all have so much potential to be better. Just realise it.