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I am unhappy every single day. Not all day necessarily. But there is never a day that I am blissfully happy. I don't think that is okay...
I am constantly questioning my marriage. I don't even know if I would consider it a marriage. I mean. We're married. We live together. But the connection is lost. Or has hit pause. I love him but there is something missing.
I feel like were more roommates than lovers. We hardly have sex and when we do it is not passionate. It's just sex. I don't feel like he is my husband when we are intimate. I feel like were just dating and screwing...
Tonight he came home at 9:15 PM. My phones not working so he couldn't call me. But he had his phone. He could have taken 10 seconds to send me a FB message.
I spent an hour preparing and cooking him dinner.
He walked in the door with a pizza.
I'm just not impressed with him at all.
I don't know if I am getting influenced by other people right now. I have a friend divorcing her husband and starting the single lifestyle again. Chris's Mom is getting a divorce. I love being alone.....and these influences are making me think of leaving him.
I'm staying for the wrong reasons really....but he will never comprehend any of this.
I am constantly questioning my marriage. I don't even know if I would consider it a marriage. I mean. We're married. We live together. But the connection is lost. Or has hit pause. I love him but there is something missing.
I feel like were more roommates than lovers. We hardly have sex and when we do it is not passionate. It's just sex. I don't feel like he is my husband when we are intimate. I feel like were just dating and screwing...
Tonight he came home at 9:15 PM. My phones not working so he couldn't call me. But he had his phone. He could have taken 10 seconds to send me a FB message.
I spent an hour preparing and cooking him dinner.
He walked in the door with a pizza.
I'm just not impressed with him at all.
I don't know if I am getting influenced by other people right now. I have a friend divorcing her husband and starting the single lifestyle again. Chris's Mom is getting a divorce. I love being alone.....and these influences are making me think of leaving him.
I'm staying for the wrong reasons really....but he will never comprehend any of this.