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I feel pretty numb to a lot of things..
I don't see Chris in my apartment anymore. My apartment. His stuff is everywhere but I can't picture him anymore. I don't know if I just magically erased the month of memories. We don't fight anymore. We don't even argue. But we also don't have anything to fight about anymore.
I re-read some of these private posts from before the deployment. Scenarios that happened where Chris left me hysterically crying on the floor not wanting to be around him...I am SO SCARED for that life again. I don't want to be his enemy. We are so similar sometimes we can hardly carry on a conversation in person without arguing.
I really do miss him and love him. If our marriage isn't doable in person at least I know I can handle living by myself in a foreign state.
ugh why am i so negative nancy today??
just disregard this. im going through a negative phase right now.
I am excited to see him soon. But I am scared.
I don't see Chris in my apartment anymore. My apartment. His stuff is everywhere but I can't picture him anymore. I don't know if I just magically erased the month of memories. We don't fight anymore. We don't even argue. But we also don't have anything to fight about anymore.
I re-read some of these private posts from before the deployment. Scenarios that happened where Chris left me hysterically crying on the floor not wanting to be around him...I am SO SCARED for that life again. I don't want to be his enemy. We are so similar sometimes we can hardly carry on a conversation in person without arguing.
I really do miss him and love him. If our marriage isn't doable in person at least I know I can handle living by myself in a foreign state.
ugh why am i so negative nancy today??
just disregard this. im going through a negative phase right now.
I am excited to see him soon. But I am scared.