one year ago
I feel like ive come such a long way from one year ago. its hard to believe its already april! this year is going by very fast. So far its been a happy year. last year at this time i was ready to give up. Ive learned so much from the experience of getting from last year to this one. for one, ive got so much to learn. just when you think you have it figured out, you realize you dont have a clue. im learning to roll with the punches, but the punches seem so few compared to a year ago. i like the person im becoming. walking into my house after work last night, i had one of those moments that you know you'll remember forever. the moon was full, the breeze was gentle and warm. the street was still and quiet. this is what happiness feels like. this is what it feels like to be content and excited to be alive. and when i realized that i'd been feeling this way for quite some time, i remembered how i USED to feel. its kind of like bracing yourself for a shot, dreading the pain, and then the relief you feel when you realize its over. i still have icky days, and we all do, but im so happy that giving up on life doesnt cross my mind everyday anymore.