yes I know, how weird, an update
everywhere I go is pretty much awkward as hell...well not everywhere, just my condo, work and well I guess thats about it.
I cant talk about whats going on at home really, but its not helping my life, not one bit.
I have no idea what it is that Louisa did to me, but it fucked me up big time, Id never been dumped before and its still effecting me, it shouldnt be, Im generally much stronger then that.
Ive been reading alot latley, "The Rainmaker" "Prey" and now another Micheal Crichton book of Devins about global warming. it gets me away from things, I sit on my balcony and read for a few hours a day generally, the problem is I can see right down into the front of my building and into the parking lot, I can also see the front door to her condo from there, but it helps I guess. Ive given up trying to stop having cigars for awhile, they tend to calm me down so Im going to keep them around.
thursday I worked from 9-1 and then packed up my gear and headed off to Falcon Lake, I needed to get away. went on a 3km hike to "The Top of the World" (that was the name of the trail) it was very nice, the only problem is there was only one person I wanted to share that experience with...I headed back down and back into town to have supper, I pretty much had supper with a retired couple that was at the table next to me the amount we talked, they were really nice. went down to the beach and read for awhile waiting for the sun to get lower in the sky, then headed back to the other side of the lake to shoot the sunset. I then headed home...back to the awkwardness
Friday I had the day off and planned to do my post processing, but ended up reading most of the day and went to the gym with mell. It was Dave's birthday on july 4th so me and Devin went to the kings head pub with him and his friends (his dad bartends there) I got really smashed (even though I wasnt going to because I had to be at work for 10 the next morning) I spent pretty much my whole 75 bucks at the bar plus the cab ride home, and got home trying not to puke, somehow I didnt and passed out on the couch (still have yet to sleep in my bed for almost a month now)
saturday and sunday sucked at work, Im getting sick of work, well mostly Im getting sick of Marlene one of the managers, I really dont like her, shes a bitch.
Today I work from 530-930 then Im gonna go get shitfaced for Bev's brothers 18th birthday, then off to Gimli for a night with my parents and mell and then sounds like thursday me and devin are going to try and get a poker game going (so Ill be drunk again)
I cant talk about whats going on at home really, but its not helping my life, not one bit.
I have no idea what it is that Louisa did to me, but it fucked me up big time, Id never been dumped before and its still effecting me, it shouldnt be, Im generally much stronger then that.
Ive been reading alot latley, "The Rainmaker" "Prey" and now another Micheal Crichton book of Devins about global warming. it gets me away from things, I sit on my balcony and read for a few hours a day generally, the problem is I can see right down into the front of my building and into the parking lot, I can also see the front door to her condo from there, but it helps I guess. Ive given up trying to stop having cigars for awhile, they tend to calm me down so Im going to keep them around.
thursday I worked from 9-1 and then packed up my gear and headed off to Falcon Lake, I needed to get away. went on a 3km hike to "The Top of the World" (that was the name of the trail) it was very nice, the only problem is there was only one person I wanted to share that experience with...I headed back down and back into town to have supper, I pretty much had supper with a retired couple that was at the table next to me the amount we talked, they were really nice. went down to the beach and read for awhile waiting for the sun to get lower in the sky, then headed back to the other side of the lake to shoot the sunset. I then headed home...back to the awkwardness
Friday I had the day off and planned to do my post processing, but ended up reading most of the day and went to the gym with mell. It was Dave's birthday on july 4th so me and Devin went to the kings head pub with him and his friends (his dad bartends there) I got really smashed (even though I wasnt going to because I had to be at work for 10 the next morning) I spent pretty much my whole 75 bucks at the bar plus the cab ride home, and got home trying not to puke, somehow I didnt and passed out on the couch (still have yet to sleep in my bed for almost a month now)
saturday and sunday sucked at work, Im getting sick of work, well mostly Im getting sick of Marlene one of the managers, I really dont like her, shes a bitch.
Today I work from 530-930 then Im gonna go get shitfaced for Bev's brothers 18th birthday, then off to Gimli for a night with my parents and mell and then sounds like thursday me and devin are going to try and get a poker game going (so Ill be drunk again)