Ignorance is Bliss

[itsjustjodie]

Title: Ignorance is Bliss
Pairing: Minkey, OnTae, JongRina, (slite! Beast, Fx, and many more)
Rating: R (Cursing; etc)
Genre: AU, Romance, High School, Rape
Summary:  ( Just put it out there I suck at summaries) Jonghyun, Key, Minho, Taemin, and Onew, after almost all there life have been in orphanage and out of the blue has now been adopted. They don't understand how or why they got here. Yet they now have a new family and a new home. 5 years have passed and they started to get use to their new life. But little do they know, they have no idea what they got themselves into.



Chapter 19A

I walked out into the street as the coldness hits me. I felt the moon light shine on me. And by each walk I can’t stop thinking about her. Her smile, her laugh, her scent, as much as I want to try to push her away I can’t. But I need to do this for Taemin. I know I’m hurting her, shit I‘m doing so much then hurting her, I’m disgracing her. But honestly, I feel like I’m much more disgracing myself.

So much I’m protecting her from, and yet in the end, I’m the one that’s causing her hurt. I’m the one that’s causing her pain. How could I even dare to put my hands on her again, even after all this is over, how could she ever forgive me for what I’ve done.

I walk up to his front porch and gave a quick knock. He opens quickly and I head inside.

“You hungry?”

I shake my head. “Na had a quick bite not so long ago”

I head towards his couch and sat down. A signs escapes my mouth as I laid back.

“You can’t keep this forever you know”

I signed again and rest my head in my hands. “I know”

“Then tell them, they could help you”

“And what would that do? Things are already bad as it is, I don’t want it to get any worst”

“Jonghyun please, just tell them something, we’re worried about you” he starts to rub my back.

“I can’t, I don’t want them to go through what Taemin went through, especially Rina”

“And What if breaking up with her wasn’t enough? What are you going to do then?”

I looked back down at the floor. I really have nothing to say. Because honestly, I don’t know what else I’ll do.

“You know Minho went to Jun asking for you… and by the looks of it, Minho lost it after they talk…”

“That’s why you texted me not to go to the café?”

He nods. “And… Rina wasn’t there either…”

“I saw her” I swallowed. “I saw her and god, I missed her… I wanted to just… god.” I signed. “I kept telling Taemin to keep her away before they see her with me. But just like her… he wouldn’t listen.”

“What happened?”

“I couldn’t ignore her for long so I kissed her, and… I think he knows”

“Knows? As in knows- knows”

I nodded. “I don’t know how, but he does”

“Then he can help”

I looked at him. “He’s already gone through enough Kiki; I don’t want any more trouble for him. He- he said he wants me to not give in, to fight it and let them show everyone what happened, but I just can’t. I can’t bear to see something like that, and Onew… Onew already been enough as it is. I don’t think he can take something like this, especially for Taemin.”

He signs. “Ok Jonghyun” he gets up and heads to the closet beside the kitchen. He pulls out some blankets and passes them back to me. “Do you know what time they’re coming to get you?”

“8:30, they said he needs to talk to me about something before school”

He walks over to his door and locks it. “Ok”

He turns back and heads back upstairs. I stopped him.

“Hey Kiki”

He turns.

“Thanks”

He smiles at me. “No problem”

He turns back upstairs and continues on walking.

I head back and take off my jacket and my shoes. I lay back on the couch and kept my eyes up at the ceiling.

What more can they want from me? I’m already doing what they asked, shit I broke up the girl I love. What is it that there fucking asking more of me?

I felt my phone ring on my side; I flipped it up only to see her name on the screen.

Princess:

I love you.

Even though the smile grew on my face, I can feel my heart sink in further. My fingers touch the keys on my phone. I wanna write back, but what would that do? That'll only just cause this matter only to get worst.

I turn to screen back to the picture wallpaper on the front. Her picture on the front screen brings the pain to my eyes. I felt my eyes come to a close as my fingers run on the screen, touching what would be her cheek. I wish to have her in my arms again, but for now things are going to have to wait.

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I-love- you, baby I'm not a monster, noun al ja na ye Joun nea mo soup oul, Shi  gan yi ji na myoun sa ra jyou bou ril ten de, Gou Taen al ten de baby

I sit up as the nose wakes me up from my sleep. I bring my hands and run the sleepiness out of my face.  I look down at my lap as I sit up to look for my phone.

I-need-you, baby I'm not a monster-

"Hello?"

-"Aww did I wake you pretty boy?"

"Damnmit Taecyeon, don't you think it's a little too early for this?" I growled.

He laughs. -"Aww, I'm just messing with you"

I scoffed.

-"anyway, be ready we're on our way"

I rolled my eyes and got up. "Yeah, yeah"

I hanged up and walked to the bathroom. I stopped and looked myself in the mirror. With all these things, I feel like I barely recognize myself anymore. I started brushing my teeth; I felt the door open behind me.

"Morning"

I nodded.

"Want anything before you go?"

I shake my head and spit out the paste. "I'll get something around school"

He signs and heads out of the room.

I wash my face and jumped in the shower. I let the water run down my hair and body; soaking me all over. I close my eyes as I try to wash away my guilt, from her and everyone. I don't want anything of them to get hurt, or to get involve with any of this. I finish washing away my misery and got out.

I-love-you, baby I'm not a-

"I just got out the shower, so don't get your panties in a bunch" I told him.

I hanged up before he got the chance to say anything.

Being with Suzy or not, this guy got no control over me. I don't care what he says; NO ONE has control over me.

I quickly got dressed and headed out.

I walked out to see his car parked out on the next block. I crossed and made it inside quickly. They started driving off.

"Jongie" Suzy wraps her arms around my neck and kisses my cheek.

I pulled off and rubbed the mark off my cheek.

"About time pretty boy"

“Yeah, yeah, so what is it that you want.”

I felt him smirk at me even though my eyes were looking out the window.

“Jongie” she crawls over to me and wraps her arms in mine. I tried to pull out but her grip was too strong. “Can you come over to my house later?”

“Now why the hell would I do that?” I asked.

“Because if you care that much for the little smut-fucking queer, then you would” she smiles.

God I hate this bi- “of course I would” I faked smile.

We finally made our stop and she kisses my cheek again and heads out. I wipe off the mark and head out after her. I stepped out to see them pulling out of the drive way. I watched as the rest of them walk out of the car. I looked over at Rina.

Her eyes catch mine as we stare at each other. Everything feels like it stopped, like time stopped for a second, and we were pulled out of reality. I can only hear my heartbeat in my ear drums. We watch each other in the silence.

“I guess loyalty does have its disobedience…” she mumbled.

But at the moment it pulls me back in. I turned to Suzy. “What?”

She smiles up at me. “Nothing, let’s go Jongie” she wraps her arm on mine and starts to walk us inside.

I looked back to try to see Rina but I only see them by her side. I felt Minho glaring at me, but I keep my eyes on her. Taemin whispers something in her ear and she nods. They take each other’s hand and head to the other entrance.

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I watched as Suzy pulls him inside. My hand in Tae’s only gets tighter.

“It’s going to be ok” he whispers.

I nodded and we walked towards the other entrance. I know Tae is just trying to protect me from him, I’m not mad, but I’m actually glad for it.

We walked through the hallway with our hands still connected, Passing everyone’s lockers till we reach our classroom and walked inside. We passed by Yosoeb and Sunny and said our hellos. We sat in the pair of seats in front of them and I rest my head on Tae’s arm as we got settled for our class to begin.

RINGGGG RINGGGGG RINGGGGGGGGG~

We packed up our books as the day finally goes by. Tae takes my hand in his and we walked towards our locker.

He’s been very clingy lately. He’s been like this since of what Jonghyun told us. But I really don’t mind it, it even bought us closer. We put our books inside and close it shut, I dropped his hand out of mine.

“if you want go ahead , I have to go and use the bathroom” I told him.

He takes my hand back in his. “I’ll take you”

I gave him a look. “Tae, I’m not a little girl, I can go myself”

He shakes his head and grips his hand tighter. “It’s ok; I’ll wait for you outside.”

He tries to walk but I hit a stop in my place. “Tae”

He signs. “I’m sorry, i-it’s just I’m scared leaving you alone, I’m- I’m just worried, ok?”

I raised my hand and pinched his cheek. “Tae, I’ll be fine, ok?”

He looks like he was about to argue, but as always he just gives up. “Ok fine”

I give him a small smile and kiss his cheek. I head back to the other hall towards the bathroom and I stopped as soon as I reached the door and looked back. Taemin has his hand in his pockets and the other one on his cheek. Even from looking behind him, I can tell he’s smiling.

I smile to myself. I’m glad that helped. I turned the knob and walked inside.

“Oh, well look who’s here?” she laughs.

My face turns back into a frown. It was good while it lasted.

I can feel my hands tense up, but I keep still, watching her. She walks up to me with her smirk still at me. “Hi Rina”

I swallowed. “Suzy”

“How you been dolly? Oh, wrong question, I should be asking, how you holding up?” the two other girls giggled behind her.

I take a deep breath and let it run through me. I try to not let this humiliation get to me. I turn to the sink and start washing my hands.

“It’s a shame how things ending between you and Jongie, I guess he just wanted something better”

That’s it, “What is your deal?”

“Huh?” she laughs.

“What is your problem with me? Why do you have to mess everything up? Between us? And him?”

“I messed everything up?! I messed up our friendship?! You think everything was my fault?” she half yells. “You clearly don’t understand anything you ever had, you ungrateful bitch!”

What is she talking about?

She signs but still manages to laugh it off. “But it doesn’t matter now, cause he’s with me and not you, so in the end, I get what I want”

I scoffed. “Let me make something really clear to you, Suzy” I slowly started walking up to her “You’re right, Jonghyun is with you, and this time you do get what you want. But at the end of the day,” I could feel her stare even while being this close to her face. “He’ll always love me”

She scoffed. “For now...”

She flares her nose and make sure to leave with a bash of bitterness on my shoulder. But honestly, I don’t care.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I picked up and reading his reply, I can’t help but have a smile on face.

Prince-

I love you too and we will get through this. I promise.

I dried up my hands and put away my phone. I walked out only to see Taemin running towards me.

“Rina are you ok? I saw Suzy coming out and you were in there too and I got so worried” he starts to look down at my hands and arms. “She didn’t hurt you right? Are-“

“Tae” I hold his hands. “I’m fine”

I recap him of what happened. He kisses my cheek and rubs my head. “That’s my girl”

I felt funny, almost like heard those words before, but just from someone else. I shake it off anyway. We lace our hands and he drags me towards the cafeteria, where everyone was waiting.

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“Jongie, pay attention to me.” She brings herself closer to me but I shove her off.

“Damnmit Suzy Get off” I keep myself away from her.

God she’s annoying

“Jongie you’re so mean!” she whines.

I rolled my eyes, yeah I’m mean.

I look away from her to see Rina and Taemin walking in with their hands together. The smile on their faces, can’t stop the on mine. But even though I’m glad to see them happy, I can’t help but feel somewhat disappointed.

I wanted to be the one to make her happy; I wanted to be the one that brings the smile on face. But I guess now that’s completely out of the question.

“Jongie, say ahh” she holds a spoon to my mouth, but I dodge it. She keeps trying but I keep dodging her.

“Jongie, hold still” she keeps trying but I wasn’t keeping still.

She finally grabs my face with her free hand and pulls me in with her.

“Got’cha” she smirks

Shit.

She brings the spoon to my mouth, but I can’ dodge anymore, she’s too strong.

I guess I don’t have a choice.

I push her off and she falls back off the seat. The shock on face brings the laughter to mine. And by the looks of everyone, I wasn’t the only one.

I looked around at everyone, there were standing and looking at her display. I look over at Rina, I could hear her laughing even from 6feet away from me, and it’s something I can never forget.

She gets back up and wipes away the food on her shirt. The look on her face said something a lot more than being pissed.

I glace back at Rina, and her eyes catch mine. She gives me a smile and I can’t help it and send her one right back.

God I miss her.

“Jonghyun!” Suzy calls. “Kiss me!”

My heart stops.

I was about to respond but she cuts me off. “Say no and I swear” she pulls off her phone. “Just an easy text and I promise you, everyone will know.”

Fuckkkkkkkk

I looked back at Rina, her smile was gone.

I looked back at Suzy. “Hey let’s just talk about this, Suzy plea-“

“No!” she growled.

Shit. “Suzy plea-“

“Don’t test me Jonghyun” she glared.

I kept looking back between her and Rina. My heart was beating so hard, I could hear it through my ears.

Damn you Suzy.

I give one last glace to Rina, and mouthed an “I love you” to her.

I glared back at Suzy; I bring her face close to mine. “I hate you” I whispered on her lips, and kissed them.

A/N: Backkkkk, i know its been like a month, but here's the new chapter just for you guys; Comments are always welcome :)



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