Softly we tremble tonight♥Picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in site,
uhm yah.
im really too sleepy tonight to write alot.
Just thought i should update.
Today was ok.
College fair was fun and stuff.
&& then i just skipped the last 30 minutes of 2nd.
uhmm oh well .
haha
then the rest of the day was a bore.
&& then i rode around with my mom and beth'as.
&& went to the funeral home.
Gosh i feel so bad for lauren. Her g-maw was sooo cute.
then i went to the powderpuff football game and watched the guys cheer with the outfits on and everything.
It pretty much made me giggle.
haha.
then came home to absolutly nothing.
just a blah mood.
:[
now im going to bed.
For some reason the only place that ever makes me cry anymore is my bed. For some reason when i lay in my bed i just feel so alone. Like everything or every memory i ever held onto is gone and im realizing that. Its just strange to me. i dont know. but i mean im ok. Dont get me wrong. Im fine.
Im fucking lying.
Im not ok. but no one cares. Its the same old shit that keeps repeating itself over and over in my life.
&& for once it has nothing to do with my mother. haha.
for the first time in over 6 months i can actually put meaning to that saying..
"Even in a crowded room she still feels all alone"
so freaking emo huh?
chyeah wayyyyy.
i guess this is just something that i have to work out for myself. As odd as it sounds i have to figure out where i stand in my own life, What will make me happy, and how i want to achieve this.
I just want to feel okay.
well goodnight.
[<3x'sinfinity+2]
♥Amber
im really too sleepy tonight to write alot.
Just thought i should update.
Today was ok.
College fair was fun and stuff.
&& then i just skipped the last 30 minutes of 2nd.
uhmm oh well .
haha
then the rest of the day was a bore.
&& then i rode around with my mom and beth'as.
&& went to the funeral home.
Gosh i feel so bad for lauren. Her g-maw was sooo cute.
then i went to the powderpuff football game and watched the guys cheer with the outfits on and everything.
It pretty much made me giggle.
haha.
then came home to absolutly nothing.
just a blah mood.
:[
now im going to bed.
For some reason the only place that ever makes me cry anymore is my bed. For some reason when i lay in my bed i just feel so alone. Like everything or every memory i ever held onto is gone and im realizing that. Its just strange to me. i dont know. but i mean im ok. Dont get me wrong. Im fine.
Im fucking lying.
Im not ok. but no one cares. Its the same old shit that keeps repeating itself over and over in my life.
&& for once it has nothing to do with my mother. haha.
for the first time in over 6 months i can actually put meaning to that saying..
"Even in a crowded room she still feels all alone"
so freaking emo huh?
chyeah wayyyyy.
i guess this is just something that i have to work out for myself. As odd as it sounds i have to figure out where i stand in my own life, What will make me happy, and how i want to achieve this.
I just want to feel okay.
well goodnight.
[<3x'sinfinity+2]
♥Amber