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hi kids its just shy of 6 in the morning and i cant sleep. prolly cause i went to bed at like8 last night.
i'm doing ok. every day with out matt gets a little better, a little more content. yesterday i was able to playfuly hit him over the head. ok it was intended to hurt a little but still. its funny cause at this time last week i really thought everything was hunky dory. sid said she talked to him, but like a jerkface se wont tell me anything. i dont even think i want to know now, it might set me back trying to get over him.
another good sign is that yesterday i realized i like my friend zeek (ezekiel [sp?]) and i think in the back of my mond i've liked him for a long time and just havent come to terms with it. i have yet to talk it over with rush (he approves all boyfriends from here on out because he's been right about all the other ones) zeeks a senior but hes saying he'll prolly stay in the area like towson or something cause he didnt get in where he wanted to go. i dunno. i think i have a chance.
i get to go ride my pony today. happy happy. i didnt get to ride her wed. cause it was her day off, but it was nice to ride someone who didnt give me crap about doors and white plastic chairs. tomorows going to be really nice and if i come back complaining about being really sore i prolly rode her out side (or tried to )
my clay head in hongs class is making very quick progress and i'm happy about that. i'm finally going to all my class including chemistry, even if i'm frightfuly behind.
i'm still going to alg 2 trig, even if before my only reason for going was to see matt. which is also good, but i'm starting to get lost again which is not good cause i only have a high D in his class and i've allready failed it twice in a row.
i'm doing ok. every day with out matt gets a little better, a little more content. yesterday i was able to playfuly hit him over the head. ok it was intended to hurt a little but still. its funny cause at this time last week i really thought everything was hunky dory. sid said she talked to him, but like a jerkface se wont tell me anything. i dont even think i want to know now, it might set me back trying to get over him.
another good sign is that yesterday i realized i like my friend zeek (ezekiel [sp?]) and i think in the back of my mond i've liked him for a long time and just havent come to terms with it. i have yet to talk it over with rush (he approves all boyfriends from here on out because he's been right about all the other ones) zeeks a senior but hes saying he'll prolly stay in the area like towson or something cause he didnt get in where he wanted to go. i dunno. i think i have a chance.
i get to go ride my pony today. happy happy. i didnt get to ride her wed. cause it was her day off, but it was nice to ride someone who didnt give me crap about doors and white plastic chairs. tomorows going to be really nice and if i come back complaining about being really sore i prolly rode her out side (or tried to )
my clay head in hongs class is making very quick progress and i'm happy about that. i'm finally going to all my class including chemistry, even if i'm frightfuly behind.
i'm still going to alg 2 trig, even if before my only reason for going was to see matt. which is also good, but i'm starting to get lost again which is not good cause i only have a high D in his class and i've allready failed it twice in a row.