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Well, it has certainly been a long week...but the next two weeks are gonna be even harder than this one. I have mad a decison about the fall...I've decided to stay in Brandon. I know. I really never imagined that I would ever want to move back, because for the longest time, Hattiesburg was my home. Whenever I came back to Brandon, I couldn't wait to get back to Hattiesburg, I loved it so much. As the time passed, things changed, things happend, and well, I found my self in a place that I didn't feel comfortable. I thought that maybe after school was out, and I got a break it would be different, but I went back this weekend, and it still just doesn't feel right. I just don't belong there. Now if you are one of my friends in Hattiesburg reading this, please know its not you. I love all of you with all of my heart, I just feel like thats not where I need to be anymore, it isn't because of one person, or any person, its because of me, and what I think is best for my life. I want to be me, and living in Hattiesburg, just isn't for me. I'm gonna get an apartment here in Brandon, and go from there...who knows where the road will lead me, but I'm packin up, and ready to go. I'm tired of basing my life on everyone else...its time that I base it on me, and what I need and want to do. Who knows what that is yet, but whatever it is...I can't wait.
Also, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that leaves comments. Whether I am looking for advice or not, your opinoins are very important to me, and I appreciate them so much...I know I write about Tony a lot in here...it relives some of the stress, and helps me to let go of stuff...so I'm sorry if it gets old...sometimes, you just have to put it out there, and let it off your chest, and into the world so at least you don't have to hold on to it anymore. Anyway...A week from Tuesday I am going under the knife, I'm really scared...okay, not just scared, I'm terrified...so if you are thinking about me anytime in the next week, just say a little prayer...I know God will hear it, cause I'll be saying my own. Anyway, I love you guys...Ciao for Now!
Also, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that leaves comments. Whether I am looking for advice or not, your opinoins are very important to me, and I appreciate them so much...I know I write about Tony a lot in here...it relives some of the stress, and helps me to let go of stuff...so I'm sorry if it gets old...sometimes, you just have to put it out there, and let it off your chest, and into the world so at least you don't have to hold on to it anymore. Anyway...A week from Tuesday I am going under the knife, I'm really scared...okay, not just scared, I'm terrified...so if you are thinking about me anytime in the next week, just say a little prayer...I know God will hear it, cause I'll be saying my own. Anyway, I love you guys...Ciao for Now!