they said to leave
when i took a moment to think about the new year and what it might hold for me, i never imagined myself single. and hear i am, starting 2010 without that certain someone who's been in my life for almost six years.
i'm fine. he's fine. we're all, at peace with the decision made like two weeks ago. it is a little sad. (and a little weird.) i don't know what to do with the oval picture he drew of us. it's quite cute and sits in the office. do i throw it away? or put in a box to rediscover when i'm 80?
and what of his friends and family? i'd like to think i was the "good one." will they miss me? or will the behind-the-back banter begin over buttered rolls and pecan pie...
no, i think they liked me and will regret his decision. aha
on a serious note, what does become of the relationships you've built from a relationship? i guess there isn't an answer, and time will tell.
every one knows who i am emotionally (in that i am not the most emotional person), and yet i think some are expecting me to have a massive breakdown. never going to happen.
it amuses me that i shake my head when my mother's gift to me are non denominational spiritual guides. she's makes an adorable hippy, which i wouldn't, and i dismissed the motivational calendar, and cosmic card she sent even though i already believe in what these things are all about. i forgive and let go. i think positively. i remain calm. i put my time and effort into getting the good out.
it is what it is. i'm sure we'll both use this as an opportunity for opportunities.
(oh and by "opportunities" i am excluding meeting new people for now and a long time afterwards. i am in no mood to date!)