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I'm feeling so sad for some reason. I actually know why it is. It's because I'm getting so paranoid about how Danny feels about me... like the whole status of our relationship. I could ask, and I think the answer would be that we're only seeing each other, but I can't bring myself to do that. I don't know how to do it without making things weird.
I was over at Danny's on Wednesday and we watched an episode of Lost before his roommate came over. Then we played some Mario Kart on the Wii with him, his roommate, and his sis. It was super fun. But I'm so bad at video games that I feel like it could bring me down a notch in the whole gf thing. Though I did get better once I got used to the controller. I know it's probably silly, but I just have obsessive thoughts all the time about everything. So that was that, then we went to bed, which always means the same thing so I'm just going to say that. When we woke up, we had some morning goodness and then got up so he could study for his final that was that evening. I helped him study too. I felt that it was good I helped right? So if we were bf-gf then I'm a good one, right? IDK, it's so hard for me. I always get really attached in a relationship. Even though I haven't had many. Apparently he did well on his test too so that's good.
I watched The Big Lebowski for the first time because Danny really likes it and apparently 25% of what he says is from that movie. See how good I am? I watched that movie, started watching Lost, and downloaded Tommy for him to watch all because I want to be a better girl for him. And I know it's probably not necessary, but that's just what I do. I hate that I need so much validation. Why can't I be comfortable with myself? I just want to get rid of my obsessive thoughts. Apparently they can be partly due to being bipolar II. woopie for being fucked up. I know it could be worse, but that helps me in no way.
You have to keep people updated on your current sitch Steph. So get to it!