August Now...
I'm posting this journal because I've made a change in my life. It's not something many people I know will be happy about, but it had to be done for me.
After spending nearly my entire school life as a band student, I am leaving the class once and for all.
At my school it's necessary to take marching band along with concert band, and this is never been something enjoyable to me.
I joined marching band simply for concert band. There was no other reason for me to be a part of it.
I thought maybe I could stand it for the rest of highschool, but it just seems as though that won't happen. Over the four years of band in this school, my experience has deteriorated more and more.
It's just too physically and emotionally taxing for me.
It's far too stressful, and I feel like I could accomplish greater things without it.
It's become so difficult for me to go through that lately I haven't even been able to sleep the night before a practice without filling up on sleeping medication.
I don't like this behaviour and I can't keep doing this to myself.
I did love concert band.
I will still love playing music.
But I feel my life will be better this way.
It's been much more emotionally difficult for me than I've let through in this journal... If it concerns you and you're really close to me, I'd feel alright telling you more.
I don't think I could have stood up for myself this way without encouragement from my friend Jess... She may live over the border, but she's still like a sister to me.
Thanks for reading.
Please have a wonderful summer~
After spending nearly my entire school life as a band student, I am leaving the class once and for all.
At my school it's necessary to take marching band along with concert band, and this is never been something enjoyable to me.
I joined marching band simply for concert band. There was no other reason for me to be a part of it.
I thought maybe I could stand it for the rest of highschool, but it just seems as though that won't happen. Over the four years of band in this school, my experience has deteriorated more and more.
It's just too physically and emotionally taxing for me.
It's far too stressful, and I feel like I could accomplish greater things without it.
It's become so difficult for me to go through that lately I haven't even been able to sleep the night before a practice without filling up on sleeping medication.
I don't like this behaviour and I can't keep doing this to myself.
I did love concert band.
I will still love playing music.
But I feel my life will be better this way.
It's been much more emotionally difficult for me than I've let through in this journal... If it concerns you and you're really close to me, I'd feel alright telling you more.
I don't think I could have stood up for myself this way without encouragement from my friend Jess... She may live over the border, but she's still like a sister to me.
Thanks for reading.
Please have a wonderful summer~